Hope things are better soon, ak angel. I can sure relate to what you say!
Sometimes, I feel like the spider climbing a web, then the web falls apart, and the poor 'ol spider has to start the whole process again from the very start (not that I like spiders!!). It's a feeling of starting all over again from the very beginning and it's tiring.
All I can say is one step at a time. If we were totally healthy, we wouldn't have to go through through this, but such is life. Pacing is so important. Step by step, we will all make it. Don't beat yourself up; just do what you can every day.
Best wishes and prayers! Every day is a new, fresh beginning. I hope you have a great week!