May or may not be leaving healingwell at least till I get things figured out

For those who i've conversed with a lot on healingwell... I just want to say (in case I end up "disappearing") that I'm truly grateful to those who have been helpful, sincere and kind to me!

I could only hope that those from different boards will see this too... those who have been so kind!

I'm really struggling with things... and since it's so tough for me to get the help that I so desperately need from the medical community, I'm sick of obsessing my life over my health... over what's wrong with me... over what MAY or may not be wrong, etc. There's no way that I can be definitive over what all is so severely wrong with my body... and I'm sick of revolving my life around these questions and nothing else. I'm sick of living in this world of my own... where I'm pushing other people away, too!

I feel as though until I can genuinely get help and be diagnosed with what all is actually wrong, this forum is only allowing me to obsess even more... which in turn drives me crazy. It's kind of equivalent to doing hours upon hours of research on a daily basis on the internet.

I'm sure that you can understand that! I hope everyone who I've spoken to a lot though, and even those I've spoken to only briefly- are aware that I'm very appreciative of their help.

So, I may or may not leave here... at least for a long time, until I can get definitive diagnoses. If that ever happens, I will float around on those particular boards, knowing the answers finally

Thank you to everyone!
I hope to see you around again some day... if I decide to leave for now...
perhaps I will "pop in" from time to time.

I wish you all well,

Eden

I will miss you, but as soon as you get an answer we'd like to know. You're case is very curious to me.

im feeling the same - ive had to step back a bit as i too am obsessing too much and its driving me bonkers! It starts to become a real tangled web otherwise

Doctor Google is not helpful. A lot of what you read on the Internet isn't necessarily true. There are some good creative writers out there. Thank goodness, when I was getting all of my illnesses, personal computers weren't around yet. But, I did have a medical book, referred to it, and swore I had so many different illnesses. I even took on some symptoms, too. I finally wised up, threw away the book, and used a doctor.

Yes, I know you can't use a doctor yet but you will find a way. Google "free medical help Pennsylvania". I found the links I posted by doing that and I didn't have time to really go over all the sites.

Also, Google diets for ulcerative colitis and Crohn's disease. They are very similar and by eating properly you can help ease the inflammation that is going on in your intestines while you are looking for medical help.

I will be praying that you get the help you need soon.

Sherrine

Thanks everyone for the support!

You got it, couchtater! I'll have to letcha know! I'll surely miss you too

Sherrine, I only read medical journals. My dream was to always be a physician, so medical journals and real medical textbooks have always been my favorite things to read... even before I was sick, I learned a lot about medicine on my own. I don't trust most things on Google. Lol

I agree, getting by, we can certainly feel more pain when we read about feeling pain all of the time!

I'm sure I won't be gone for good... just need to break for a while, and to stop obsessing. Fighting for the assistance and help I need is enough to worry about for now (plus, going to college at the same time-- hopefully I'll feel less stressed in the summer)!

Take care,
see ya around!

Evanescent Eden

Evanesgent Eden, 8 years have passed from your last message but I have to say I felt so sorry when I read your posts and was curious if you found a way and got well. And I decided to write. I hope you are in a better state.