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Not for me. It's always there lurking in the shadows ready to snatch a thought like a greedy monster. Sometimes it let's it go after playing with it, but most of the time it's never seen again......sigh..... ;-)

Thanks for your replies, couchtater and ak angel. It's a relief after all these years to have others to share this with who get it, although it was my brother, who is a doctor, who diagnosed it years ago when I was prescribed amitriptyline for depression and all of a sudden my pain started getting better. He's very sympathetic as is my husband but who wants to burden their family members with this?

The only thing that has ever worked for me is amitriptyline. I used to take 50 mg before going to bed but my thinking got so confused I tried going off it completely a few years ago thinking it was the meds not the FM itself causing the problem. After a week, I could hardly hold my body up and sitting on a chair was excruciating on the back of my legs. After a month of that, I gave in and started the amitriptyline again, but have kept it to 10mg. It only takes the edge off but I can function and I do think I see cognitive improvement: I had gotten to the point where I couldn't parallel park anymore or, even with a gps, not get lost driving.

I still can't get the right words, lose my train of thought often, and find it hard to do mental work tasks that used to be a piece of cake. I'm suffering from serious depression which I've had on and off for forty years too and don't know what's the chicken or the egg. I'm trying to figure out how to proceed with my life. I'm bad enough that I'm taking sick time from work for the first time in my life and can't bear to do anything.

So, ak angel - I'm not sure I will be of help to anyone! But I do appreciate reading what others have written.

Fem, I use to suffer from severe depression. It took years to finally figure what works for me. I do know pain is a trigger for my depression. I was offered to read some great books that had some helpful tools in helping depression. She also has a book about fibro too. Her name is Mary Copeland. She goes all over the world to share her depression program with others. After reading the book and doing what it says, it really got me started on a journey of wellness. I have tried therapist, with very little help. I do take an antidepressent that really has helped me for many years. My psy. Dr. Is thinking about reducing it because I am doing so well.

I also try to surround myself with great Christian ladies that can support me. I read uplifting scriptures daily and love christiann music. Some other people I know use meditation or just focusing on the beauty outside. I think it's important to have some kind of outlet in these days.

Maybe you need a different kind of med for your depression. Anytime you need to talk I do understand.