one of those days

I can't wait until my fibro, anxiety and depression are all under control. I can't stand the insomnia and chronic fatigue anymore. I can't wait to give people hugs without wincing in pain. I can't wait to pick up my kids without struggle. I can't wait to be a fun person again. I can't wait to walk normally again without feeling like I need a cane. I can't believe how much this chronic pain disorder has changed me so drastically. I hardly recognize myself. It's hard to think positive most days when the thought of giving up creeps in your mind.

I'm sorry. .Vent Over.

I'm just having an emotional morning. .ugh wish I could just turn off my brain for a bit. I'm sure it's because I barely slept. I don't know.
I'm going to look into Adderall. I see my doctor again on December 1st to increase my dosage of Cymbalta.
I go on little walks here and there but I get so tired then my back and knees hurt like crazy. I still try though.
thank you Karen

Thank you for the gentle hug Joy :)

GoAskAlex,
Hey When you read this I want you to try something different with your pain and other symptoms. First, I want you to give your fibro a name. I call mine Damian, because he is evil. Then after you have named it, I want you to talk back to it in your head, or out loud if you like LOL. I do this in my head. "OK Damian I see that you are causing pain in my legs today and giving me some anxiety, what's got you so P!%%ed off today. Well, guess what? not today Damian not today. I am stronger than you and you will not win. So whatever has made you angry such as my job, or the stress of the bills or whatever you need to get over. Its ridiculous that you act up like this just because you don't like the weather, or the conversation I had with my boss. SO KNOCK IT OFF!!!"

This is my way of using self talk to tell my brain that I am in charge. Its like using the tough love approach on a child when they misbehave. Its not always easy to do, but most days I find it helps. Let your fibro know that you are not going to give up to it. Let it know who is the boss.

Try it for a few days change your attitude towards it.

Hang in there
Michael

Michael,
YOU'RE AWESOME! Haha, that is such a great way to deal! I LOL'd at the name Damian.

I will be trying this. My fibro's new name is Gilbert after Gilbert Gottfried, because it's annoying just like his voice. Lol. Thank you for the suggestion..I'll see how talking to Gilbert will go. :)

Michael, I'll let ya know how it goes!