Therapy

I have been reading the posts about seeing a therapist. Have been feeling like I need to see one. My problem is fibro liked in after I worked for 2 child psychirist. I cleaned their home for 20 yrs and too care of the mrs for 3 years, almost daily for 2 yrs. I became very good friends with her. She cared for me after some injuries. The problem started when he make some seriously horrific decisions. I will just say it involved guns, attempting to kill her and other problems. He fired me one day after telling me that when she died he wanted me to look after huge house and dogs so he travel. I'll spare you the rest of details. Her best friend came to help care for her for a few months. There was a lot of signs thTi missed as did she. I lived in fear of him, anxiety any time I saw a car that looked like his. I started to put pieces together of his actions. Nightmares for months. Thought I was doing better but now am remembering more thongs. So I really don't think I can Talk to a therapist or other professional. I just can't trust any of them.

Family has let me vent but they don't know all the details. Trying to figure out how to processor all. This happened 3 yrs ago. Guess I'm just doing a little venting here. I no longer have to fear him. He committed suicide.

I'm so sorry to hear of your traumatic experiences. I can't begin to imagine how hard it must be for you. I hope you can find someone to really talk to about it. Could you maybe join a support group? That way it isn't a one on one type of thing.