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Posted 3/29/2015 9:06 PM (GMT 0)
It has been a while since I've posted, but I come a lot and see how others here are going through a lot of what I am and get a lot of help from the replies. I am on 300 MG Tramadol, 1 Hydrocodene as needed (flare ups), & on Clonazepam or Klonpin 2 x daily as needed for anxiety and sleep.

I find I have been having a lot of flare ups lately. I am under a lot of stress and I know this is the reason. I find also that I cry an awful lot because there is nothing I can do to "fix" the problems at hand. The problems that cause me stress. What vicious cycle!

I take it out a lot on my husband who has only cared for me and wishes he could take this pain completely away. If I am tired, or in pain, and frustrated because I can't get things done, my poor husband pays for it. I am always apologizing, and he so graciously understands and lets it go. Then I feel guilty :( because there really is no excuse for bad behavior.

My faith helps me, but even so, there are times I feel so sad and angry at how things have turned out for me physically, financially, socially, and even spiritually. I can't walk a block without pain and fatique. I used to run 6 miles 4 days a week! I get so tired most days of the week that I can't cook a decent meal for my husband. Thank God for leftovers. When I do get the energy to cook, I cook enough for 3 days.

But my post here is why is it that I finding myself crying so much? I don't do good on SSRI's, so that is out. I know depression is a part FM, but I wish sometimes I felt happier. I know a lot has to do with what has gone on in my life recently, but it scares me a little. Will I always feel this way? Is this just another FM thing I must learn to live with?

Just want to vent, and see if anyone else has experienced this. Thank you for listening :)
Posted 3/29/2015 9:23 PM (GMT 0)
You say you don't do good on SSRI's, but have you tried an SNRI? It is a little different. It helps with anxiety and often has less side effects. Though everybody is different and react differently to these. Have you thought about counseling?

Depression kind of goes hand in hand with fibromyalgia. There is the loss and grief over the things we can't do anymore. And anger. All emotions we have to deal with.

I would talk to your doc. Explain that you don't do good on SSRI's. See if there is something else you can try.

Try to go easy on hubby. They do try to help but often don't know just how to do it. They can't help the way that we feel. Venting here should help too. There are many here who understand what you are going through.

I couldn't tolerate SSRI's either so I went on the SNRI. It is much better.

I hope that you feel better soon.

Hugs, Karen...
Posted 3/29/2015 9:48 PM (GMT 0)
I think crying is pretty natural when you suffer from chronic pain. We remember what we used to do and can't do now. I can do more things because I really pace myself. This helps a lot and I don't get so fatigued. I don't try to do things the way I used to. Know what I mean?

I also find that maintaining a positive attitude helps me immensely. I don't look in the past. The past is over with. I look to the future with anticipation because I could have a good day. I do not project myself in the future since no one knows what the future holds. Instead I like to look at my many blessings. I like to look at all the beauty around me and I don't dwell on the negative things. I bet if you make a list of the negative things in your life and the positive things in your life, your positive list will be far longer. Don't forget things like the roof over your head, food on the table, your eyesight, having a computer, a husband who loves you a lot and is forgiving, etc. These are things not everyone has in this world.

In Fibro 101 there is a link about how to maintain a positive attitude when you suffer from chronic pain. It really is good and this can help you, too. I hope you do start to feel better

Sherrine
Posted 3/29/2015 10:06 PM (GMT 0)
Hi there, I just wanted to let you know , I think I understand , alot o f what you said sounds similar . I am too under stressful circumstances my flares are getting worse . I fight with guilty thoughts and feelings about how this affects my family. I cry especially when my pain is so intense during flares that my pain med (oxycodon ) isn't working. I take amitriptyline at night to help me sleep through the pain. I also take Zoloft for depression/anxiety.

You mentioned your faith. And I am holding on to my faith in The Lord. I particularly like to think on Romans 8:28 and we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are called according to his purpose.

I am praying that I can find a doctor that will help me. I'm also praying that God will use this for good. And trying to keep focus that his ways and thoughts are higher than mine . So what I think is a better situation , I believe God knows what is best. I try to focus and pray and read bible scripture. i also ask other to pray with me for strength . I know it's easy to say then going through this . And my emotions do not always line up with these thoughts. For example, we shouldn't feel guilty for our limitations, but I do. I get scared because I don't know how much more of me will be left soon . As I see my condition getting worse. But I hold on to my hope in The Lord.

I used to exercise regularly as well but now I struggle with standing on my feet for a short time . If I try to tuff it out the pain gets worse and harder to calm with meds. I get exhausted trying to find news ways to ease my pain . I hope I am not making you feel worse I just wanted to share and relate to you.
Posted 3/29/2015 11:29 PM (GMT 0)
(((((((Gentle hug)))))))

I have trouble with certain medications and can't take some so I try alternative methods when I can.

I've found two things that have eased my stress level which in turn lowers my pain.
First, I go to a therapist who helps me deal with being sick and in pain. Together we work on dealing with my stressors and my guilt of not being as active as I once was.

Second, I use a collection of videos I found on YouTube by a hypnotist called David Fairweather. He has some for relaxation and stress relief.

I have a lot of pain causing issues and I find that those two things have helped me more than any pain killer I've been given.
Posted 3/29/2015 11:53 PM (GMT 0)
Thank you all! I truly thank God for this forum. You have all offered great advice. Counseling is something my doctor has recommended and I really think it is time to do so. Part of my problem is living in the past. And another is always trying to do more than I should. And @getting by I will ease up on hubby, sometimes I think I got too good of a man, he does not deserve to be used as punching bag. @purple_lynx7 thank you for those encouraging words! And Sherrine you always are awesome! Well let just say, you are all the best! God bless!
Posted 3/30/2015 2:59 PM (GMT 0)
Know we are all here for you. Counseling helps me so much. I don't go as often as I use to but I keep in touch every couple of months.

Remember, take care of you. I hope you are feeling better...

Hugs, Karen...
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