I am 50 years old, have had fibromyalgia for 8 years now. At first the docs put me on increasing pain meds all the way up to 40 mg of Oxycoton 3x a day, yes I was of in la la land! Eventually, I was taken off that and put on 60mg of Morphine ER 3x per day, 30mg of Morphine IR, 4 to 6x per day as needed, with 1mg Xanax 3x, Topomax, etc (forgive the spelling on these) Last year, I began weaning down my med levels, by the beginning of this year, I was down to 60mg Morphine ER 15mg 1x per day, 1.5mg a day for Klonopin, still on Topomax, not mentioned was I do have hypothyroid, which developed in the last few years, being treated with a med for that, and diagnosed in June 2015 with a Vit D deficiency (but very little was discussed on that - doc put me on 50,000 Vit D 1x per week)
I try to make light of it to my family, say things like my body is rebelling against me, everything all at once. I adopted 2 babies, one in 2005 with special needs, he is amazing! But requires a lot of care, and my youngest, was in 2007. Six months after I received her, I came down with my illness. At first none of us had no idea what we were dealing with. My two little ones have never known the mother, my two older ones had, they were born 1983 & 1995. (BTW any of you thinking this woman is crazy, yes my family is complete now ;-) ) I try to stay positive, but in all honesty, I hurt so bad, I am off the morphine & Klonopin, after 3 months of sheer agony, I did get the lightest dose of Percocet and take it only as needed. I get tired so easily, is this normal? And when the pain goes from moderate to bad to extremely unbearable, it happens quickly, does this happen to other people to?
I have learned everyone varies so much, I don't get very good answers from the doctor. I was able to learn more about
the severe muscle weakness which I am now experiencing too on a different thread (one I learned I wasn't alone, two it gave me more to think about
) And yes I am going to take one of those rare moments and say what I really want to: I hurt, I am so exhausted, and I wish this would go away I want the old me back!
Thanks for reading my post, T