Sorry it's been so long since my last update. We have been having a struggle. My mother in law, doesn't want to have a liver transplant. However she, does admit to being depressed. We are trying to find a therapist that she can go see. And we just hope that she will change her mind. But at the same time if it is what she really wants, then we cannot change that.
We have more doctor appointments next week. She has to see a cardiologist and then have another CT of the liver, this time with IV contrast. They want to make sure she doesn't have any tumors.
The home health nurse came today, and mentioned Hospice care. I dont even know how to bring that conversation up to my husbands brothers. They are excepting the illness a little better, but I don't know if they can take this blow. She has been in bed mostly for the past 3 days, although she did get up yesterday for the physical therapist, but she was resistant to doing the exercises.
She stays upstairs in her room, and I take her breakfast, lunch and dinner, and snacks. The past two days, she's decided that she'd rather go to the bathroom in her depends, rather than getting up to go to the bathroom. And she now has the rash, again. It comes out of no where, and leaves the same way. She has been itching so badly, so I've been giving her 25mg benadryl twice a day as needed, per doctor orders. She keeps telling me that she's bleeding, but I cannot find any evidence of blood. Her urine is dark orange. So it's possible that she has a UTI, or worse her kidneys are shutting down.
I am so tired of the roller coaster. I am starting to feel like a robot. My 3 year old son, has been so neglected, and then I feel guilty and over spend on toys, hoping that it will make him feel better and loved. But today, I did go outside with him to blow bubbles, which was so great, I got to hear him laugh. It was so wonderful.
I just wish I could explain it to him what is going on so he will understand.
Well that is all I can say for now. God bless all of you who are going thru this. I pray for you all, everyday along with our own prayers, for our family.
Love to all,
Amee