Hi everyone!
My sweet daughter just bought a new computer for me so I am back on line after over a year. I was just looking around and found this amazing site. I've been glued to it for about 2 hours now and thought that this would be a great place to be.
I was diagnosed with ESLD in Jan of this year. The only cause we can come up with is a contaminated transfusion in 1976 when they didn't test for that. I didn't know anything about having the virus until 1993 when I was actually accidentally tested for it. All I knew about it was that the nurse on ER had it and everyone on the show acted like it was a really bad thing (sounds like the same ignorant conditions as my first pregnancy!! - except for being good, of course). They put me on the Interferon and I didn't tolerate it well at all. Finally, my doctor said something about my DNA predicting that it probably wouldn't work for me anyway and stopped the treatment. Once I stopped the Interferon I felt fine and went on to complete a Ph.D. in cognitive systems and behavioral neuroscience from Arizona State University in 1995; the same year my first grandchild was born. Everything was going so great and I was frequently promoted. Then, about two years ago I started to actually lose jobs. I would become confused, slur my words, forget what I was talking about, etc. I'm sure everyone thought I was abusing drugs! Sometimes I was better, but we never knew. I decided to quit working for awhile which is probably a good thing since no one would hire me, Ha!!
I have 5 grandchildren now and have been able to spend more time with them then before. However, I really, really regret the times that I have frightened them because I'm not being the "other, O.K." grandma. I'm on Enusol which I guess is the same as lactulose, but my ammonia levels still ride a roller coaster. Last week was 147. I'm on the list for a transplant.
What I hope to get from this site is to provide hope, support and prayers for those of us who feel just a bit cheated. I hope by doing this that it will keep me off the pity pot. I don't want to give up, but to fight and give this thing a run for it's money. That why I am...
2 young 2 die!