Me again...

I previously posted under "watching him waste away"....still the same, he won't tell me anything. Even his doctors won't give me any info. He looked a little better to me last week, come to find out he wasn't taking his meds so the fluid build up made the appearance of looking a little healthier. He is back taking them and has lost 6 lbs in the past 3 days. I am on the verge of packing up the kids and walking away because I cannot support someone who doesn't want help or a shoulder to lean on. He is miserable to all of us and our house is no longer a home. I feel guilty but need to think of the kids and what he is doing to them.

 

They sound like one in the same, although mine has quit drinking but is now saying he dreads summer coming because it'll be no fun not drinking. Hubby went to work this morning, in 2 feet of snow. Daily I have people that know him question me on his health, but everything is hush hush with him. I thought 2 weeks ago at his last appoint. he had finally decided to let me in. How embarrassing is it to not even be allowed in the waiting room, I had to wait in the lobby downstairs....then I got "What more do you want I let you come to the appointment". A 45 min. appoint was over 2 hours and the funny thing is was that there was a snow storm that day and all the other appointments cancelled. So it was hubby and 4 doctors. Would have been nice to be in there and get some questions answered.

I've noticed dark orange spots on his undies, he's always cold and his legs are very itchy. He's always starving but seems like as fast as he's done eating he's in the bathroom. last night his breathing was as if he was struggling. If I say anything I get "I'm fine...I go to work every day, eat healthy and go to the doctors..what more do you want from me". He's still in denial.

Wondering....it's been quite a few years but I had to leave with my two oldest daughters from a similiar situation...in the end I chose to put their needs before my husband's. It was the right decision although coming from a very strict religious background it went against everyone in the community's judgement... and the fact that the only skill I had was truck driving made it worse... no woman drove truck at that time...we were ranchers... and I married him at 17 straight out of an orphanage and did not have my education at that time...with those two girls... I went forward ... worked 2 and 3 jobs.... while going to school full time... it was the right decision... the girls both have successful lives... their dad was forced into an interventin shortly after that and straightened his life out... but it is not an easy decision to leave.... but you should like you have your head pretty square about your decision...agree about the dark spots... Mike had those dark urine spots in his underwear...