Posted 10/1/2014 7:25 PM (GMT 0)
Hi.
Thanks for your quick response. Years of drinking, changes in my body, e.g., jaundice, organ pains, etc., indicate that something is wrong. Eventually, I will get to see a doctor. Before then, however, I hope to have quit drinking. Recovery groups, AA, etc., are fine, but they will not make me stop drinking. On the other hand, what I find here is more convincing. For example, knowing the difficulties that come with late stage liver disease makes me accept that I cannot afford to get there, for I lack the support that others have. I live alone, and do not plan to burden anyone with my self inflicted condition. Thus, there will be no one to pay the bills, to take care of me, or to drive me to the hospital. Death, therefore, will come quickly. So, the question for me is not whether I want to drink or quit, it is whether I want to live or die.
On the positive side, I smoked for 10 years and quit more than 10 years ago, so, I guess, I can beat this too.
Again, thanks for being there, and, I will keep reading.
Best regards.