Feeling sick and overhelmed

hello dear Friends,

did anyone of you felt so sick that you think youre going insane.i felt sometimes so sick that i just cry cry and cry.
i still work part time but i takes an enormous toll on me,everything is so hard to do even small and easy things.

iam under the care at a transplant team but they never mentioned transplantwould be a needed in the near future.

my meld toggles between 7-9 but this number does absolutley not correlate with my feeling.just so sick,feeling cold.all the time,no appettite pain everywhere and iam soo scared and severe depressed of whats going to happen next.
iam 2 years SVR but i guess my liver dont know its time to heal .-)
my US and Fibroscans do not show i have cirrhosis,but my bloodwork does i guess, alltough the numbers go up and down.
i know in switzerland were i live transplant is not an option until your meld is 14.

just needed to write to some people who understand what suffering means,for me my live is a living hell.and asking myself i heve the strenght to continue like that,the most hardest is that all my hope has gone.

Marc

Hello themiz,

thank you for your answer.yes when i was a teenageer i had hepb also but cleared on my own as 97% of adults do.so luckely it did not get chronic and i have the antibodies against the the hep-b(like a vaccine)

as for my hepc i just dont get it why i feel so sick with so many liver symptoms,but every 6 months when i go for fibroscan and US nothing shows that iam cirrhotic,but my bloodtests does,my billirubin is mostly elevated(gilbert is ruled out done with genetic test)

my docs telling me i will probably never decompensate or need a transplant,but they say they are not magicans but my future looks bright,anf IF i should really ending up needing a transplant they will put me on the list.

my depression is very severe the more sick i feel the more depressed i get.i have a psychiatrist whos working with me an that problem just withoout sucess ,sometimes i can hardly functionating.
in the past 2 years i checked so many times for other causes for my symptoms,but till now nothing was found.

Post Edited (xxer) : 2/24/2015 10:26:39 AM (GMT-7)

Thanks for the answers.for me it's difficult to find an antidepressants wich does not stress liver further.here I have to make a decision benefit and risk.
I tried several already but none was working some made me feel more sick with liver pain.
I have big support by my wife and family but not that kind a advocate you mean.because they all think my liver is fine as my doc's are saying.but I don't know it's allowed to a doc to tell the patient not the truth about his illness.

Post Edited (xxer) : 2/24/2015 11:25:23 AM (GMT-7)

xxer i hope you start feeling better and the doctor can tell you the truth its left up to their discretion. sometimes it is a battle to make them talk but you can get the info you want to know..