Posted 7/13/2006 6:02 AM (GMT 0)
teresa,im glad the procedure went well for mark,,,,you must be a little relieved,,,,,keeping an upbeat spirit is the key to recovering and healing
ok here goes,i dont have much time on the pc as i am afraid somethin might happen at the hospital and they wont be able to reach me ..............
rick had the most wonderful day yesterday(tues),,,,,,,,he even cooked supper for everyone,,,and was so proud,he wanted to take some to his brother in law who is also his best friend,,,,,,,,he was so back to his normal self,,,laughing,joking,,,,,god how good it was to see ,,,,,,,,i felt my spirits lifting so much as i watched him actually enjoy life again,,,,,,,,,,when we got back from his brother in laws,,,,,,rick was laughing and so happy,,,,,i said man i love this rick,,,,what has brought on the change in attiitude??? he replied,i dont know,its like a dream come true i feel so good,,,,,,,,,,,i hope im not goin to die tomorrow! and he laughed,,,,,,,then went to take a shower...he returned from the shower,,,,,and was all wet,and i thought,,,,why didnt he dry off,then he said trish,i have had two nitro tabs and my chest is still killin me,,,,,,,,,he headed for the bathroom to puke,and told me to get him another one,,,,,,,i helped him up off the floor as he told me,,,,,,call 911,,,,,,i did right away,,squad came fast,,,,,gave him morphine,more nitro,oxygen,and aspirin,,,,,and off to the ER we went,,,,my daughter goin with me in the car,,,,when we got to ER,the nurses were all in the cubicle hookin rick up to monitors n such,,,,so me and brianna just took a seat outside the curtain and waited,,,as soon as the crowd around him died down,i slipped into the room with only one nurse left in there,,,told rick i loved him and he was goin to be ok,,,,,motioned brianna to come in for a sec,,,as soon as she reached the foot of his bed,rick looked at me and said,i need to puke,,the nurse said right there is somethin to puke in,pointing to a very small little thing,,,,,i said noooooooo he needs a trashcan,and turned around to grab it,,,,when i turned around,,,,,ricks arms locked in a weird position,his eyes rolled back in his head,and he coded,,,,,,,,,,gone,,,,,,,,my daughter turned to get out,,,,i screamed,,,,GET IN HERE NOWWWWW,,,,,,,,,RIGHT NOW MOVE MOVE MOVE,,,,,as i got out of the way of incoming help,,,,,,they called in heart dr and went in to see what was goin on with his heart,,,,,his stent collapsed that he had put in just a couple weeks ago,not clogged,COLLAPSED,,,,,,,,,,,,they put another one in to try to open up the artery temporarily,,,,,and cracked the artery,,,he is goin to have to have open heart surgery now,but his blood levels are so bad,,,,,,,very low platelets,.,,,,,,,,that they have to wait 4 or 5 days to do it,,,,,,,so hes in intensive care til they can do it,,,,,,i was told later he wouldnt have made it through by pass last night,if they couldnt have got the stent in temporarily,,,,,i wandered the halls of the hospital last night,,,,watchin ppl in the ER,,,,,,and then would shoot back up to listen to rick breathe at his bedside,,,,,,,,,i didnt sleep at all,and did alot of thinkin,,,,,worryin about how to take care of him when he gets home,and what if he doesnt come home,,,,,,please yall,,,,,,take hold of ya spouses and hug them so tight,,tell ya kids how much you love them and appreciate them,,,,,,i am so scared,,,,,,,i have never in my life felt so helpless,then when i looked at his face and the life had gone out of him,i am haunted by that look every time i shut my eyes,,,,sorry to lay all this on yall but i cant let this out with my kids and i feel like im goin crazy,,,,,,,,,gotta go in case any calls from hospital,,,please take care of yourselves and your families,,love each other like theres no tomorrow,,,,cause there might not be,,,,keep us in your prayers and ill check back in when i can,,,,,,:hugs: