Thanks for your replys. You always think you have it bad until you talk to others.Teresa,I am so sorry your husband is having so many problems. I know sometimes I want to walk out the door and not look back because I get so tired of being a caregiver. I have sisters to talk to and they always tell me what I'm feeling is natural but they don't really know what I go thru or what I feel deep down inside. I told my husband years ago(he's 54) to grow up and stop the drinking but he never listened to me. I would threaten, yell,cry, do just about
anything to get thru to him and now I'm paying for his STUPID mistake! I know he is suffering,and afraid he is going to die but the real kicker here is he knows I lost my MOM at age 56 when I was 20 years old to cirrhosis(also from drinking). The other big issue I have is he just quit drinking.Just like that!!!! The doctor told him if he didn't quit he was going to die and so he quit. No AA, no counseling, nothing! He hasn't had a drink in almost 2 years.I don't know how to get over these feelings of anger I have towards him. I do love him with all my heart but I just want to look at him and tell him that he's a stupid a**hole, and me and my 2 boys (ages17&19) are the ones that are suffering.The transplant staff told me that this disease is devastating to a family but I didn't have any clue it would be like this. One more thing about
your post, my husband needed to loose the weight because he was over 300 pounds.The bad thing about
it was that it came off so fast he was constantly sick. Thanks all for listening!