wifeofdrinker

hi, p.g. thank you so much for keeping me in your thoughts, it means a lot. i have been here catching up but havent posted for a while. hubby had a set back and fell off the wagon for a week end. very hard to get my head around that as i had only just started believing he was sober!.
he is due to have his endoscopy soon. they have reffered him for it after all and we should hear next week. hubby is still living with his sister at the moment.
the hospital told him he wouldnt make the transplant refferal even if he got sober and that a transplant is the only way he will survive so he hit that beer again and he hit it hard.
back to no drinking at the moment though so that is good.
his health is declining quite quickly again at the moment, lots of bleeds, he is covered in bruises, you all know the drill.
i have booked a holiday for us in december and i told him if he stays sober we would love for him to come away with us for the week. i prey he can.
thats it really, not much new, same vicious circle.
how are you doing??
well i hope. thank you for your thoughts.
xxnatasha.xx

yes, they gave him an endless list of reasons not to refer him for the transplant eval. heart problems, mental health issues, nerve damage, you name it. guess they were right in that they thought he would always be a drinker as he did hit it pretty hard after the news. he is starting again though with getting sober but who knows?!.

he dosent actually do "poor me" anymore though, i guess being sober for a while made the facts sink in that he did this to himself, no one else to blame.
it is hard on those of us that will be left to deal with the grief but ultimately he is a grown man and yes his decision to keep drinking untill it was too late, was a very selfish one but ultimately it was his decision to make.

i am quite done in with it all at the moment to be honest. i realise that there is no sense in worrying what will happen untill it happens and i shall deal with it and my boys when the time comes.
thank you all for your concern.
xxnatasha.xx

I'm happy to hear he's over the "poor me" syndrome. We see enough of that on other posts. I think that means he's finally growing up.

thank you all so much for your support. it really does mean so much in a world where no one i have in my life fully understands what all this means. i will keep popping in as im sure there are stormy times ahead,. many thanks again.xxnatasha.xx

Dear Wifeofdrinker,
Your strength is amazing!! Your attitude too!! Keep up the good work, and keep us posted. It definetly gives me strength, to read how positive you are with the decisions you have had to make . . Thank you!!

Debbie