It's never too late to turn this thing around and the ball is in your hands , It's hard overcoming a death in the family . I can only offer my condolences to you and the family .
Find someone to share those feelings you have been having instead of letting them fester and make you even sicker , Don't lean on alcohol to take the pain away . I do applaud you for having the sense to see where that road would take you . Hope you keep it up and stay vigilant with doctors and start living better .
A. Ziffle