I said this before and will say it again . The physical sickness of this or any disease is equally as bad as the mental hardships it also brings . It seems like everything pounces on you at once and works at destroying the recovery process . Just my opinion but if you could isolate yourself from the outside stressors I believe the recovery rates would increase . I know , I know , It's impossible to avoid drama or stress ( Learned that the hard way ) in life .
I just try and focus on what's important now and do the best I can to head off any unnecessary irritations . Carol my daughter also had a beef with me about never being there for her . Maybe I could have done better as a father but paying child support kept me working 6-7 days a week till she was 18 . She and her mom lived on the West coast for several years and when I took vacation or when she visited me for summer I made sure I devoted my time solely to her . My biggest regret is that I didn't spend more time with her as a father and not her personal banker . Can't undo that now and aint gonna beat myself up over things that I can't change . I've apologized sincerely for any wrong my reckless life has caused her but that's all I can do .
Maybe she'll see things differently when the responsibility of parenting while divorced comes her way . I hope it doesn't take that . If it makes her happy to blame me from a distance then so be it , until then She knows how to get in touch with me .
A. Ziffle