Caught in the stress cycle

I have a problem. IBS interferes with my life; I feel bad, and I can't stop thinking about it. I spend all my time reading about ways to try to feel better, different treatments etc. I feel like I can't do the things I used to enjoy; sports are, for now out because running makes me have to go to the bathroom. I think about it all the time is the thing; just walking down the street I think how I feel off or I feel okay today but I should watch what I eat for lunch etc.

I realized this when one night I got this feeling on my leg which quite honestly felt like I had soiled myself. It was so real that I got out of bed and checked it out to make sure I hadn't! I've now gotten that feeling at least once every 1-2 days, this twitch in the hairs on the back of my right thigh that perfectly imitates liquid running down my leg. My constant obsession is causing my body to go crazy.

I'm going to be returning to hypnotherapy in a few weeks, but I need something else to shift my focus from this problem. I'm ready to stop obsessing and just start trying to think about other things; I haven't had a moment without my bowels in the back of my mind in months now. I need a new hobby or activity to absorb my focus, and it can't be anything too physical (all I can really do right now is lift weights, anything else, i.e. cardio makes me feel worse).

So, I'm asking you for suggestions! Something that will keep me off the internet and keep my mind off my intestines. I'm considering yoga, but I also want something like a real hobby, because you only do yoga like once a day in general right? I guess I should warn you that I'm not artistic, I've never been able to draw or paint or take photos. Any ideas for something similar to playing an instrument? Something I can do in my own home? Something who's practice will take time and dedication, so that to improve I'll actually have to focus on it.

Thanks for any suggestions, I'm really trying to get back to living life.

-Jesse

I know exactly how you feel. I often tell my hubby how he is lucky and takes his regularity for granted. Normal folk just don't understand how something like IBS can color so much of our lives. I don't go anywhere unless I know they have a decent public washroom. And everytime food goes in, in the back of my mind I wonder if it is going to hurt coming out.
As far as hobbies go, finding the right one can do a lot of good. For me it is knitting. Not sure if it is up your alley or not, but for me it is perfect. When I am knitting, my mind instantly calms down, I think a lot when I knit, but my thoughts aren't as stressful when knitting. Even in my worst attacks, if I just can't stand the pain another second and need a break, I find that if I read a knitting magazine, or even just flip through and look at the pretty pictures, my attack instantly goes on hold. Of course as soon as I stop, it comes back full force, but it gives me a minute or two of merciful peace. I am not sure why it works this way, but I have relied on this for so long and it has never let me down. I hope you find something that you can enjoy!!