one step forward two stpes back.

i feel so ruogh at mo had pains in sides agian and d. i t is now strarting to really get me down. i hvae bascailly given up hope of finding something to ease my pain. i was surpose to be going out for a nigth out but instaed had to stay in bed. i had to leave collage early on thurday as i felt so ruogh and couldn't stay off the loo.

my work hvae told me thta thye want to contact my gp to see if i can carry on working or the will sack me if thye feel thta i will need any more time of. thsi is making me feel stressed and upset. if i lose my job i will hvae no money and aslo find it hard to find another one if i get sacked. i went in to work on friday feeling like crap felt really sick and kept having to go to the loo. i had no choice but to go to work and i had to work late. i felt so dissy i thoguht i was gonna pass out. i spent most of the time on the loo and my work collgues just watched me not even an are you ok from thme.

it seems thta i take one step fowrad and two back. i hvae been bter in myself as i was suffering depression because of my stomach problems end of last year. i just see other peole on here posting something positive thye get a diagnoses and thne help but i just seem to get negativety from gi and gp. i am going to see gi at hos on monday i am praying he can help me. sometimes i just feel like i need a break from it all.

at the mo i am going to relaxsation classes and yoga run by my local mental health unit i come out feeling relaxed but thne go back to wrok and go home completeyl stressed. i just dont know hwat to do any more. i just fel like i hvae no control over any thing now. i use to be able to chose what i wanted to do but now my body tells me whether i can go out. ibs has cut me off from my friends thye go out and enjoy thmeselves. i get phone calls texts etc about what thye have ben doing . i feel angry thta i cant doing what i want. i just wanna fel noralm again.

i am so sorry you are feeling down. do you have time or do any relaxation stuff like meditation or yoga or anything like that? it sounds like it could help you. as much as it sucks to hear it; stress causes all kinds of yucky stuff to people and it sounds like you have a ton of it! take it easy and take care of yourself.
i was in a similar work situation last january and had to resign. turns out it was a great thing for me, i took the time to get healthy and start putting myself first, and started looking for work and i now have a different job making more money and a clearer sense of what is important.
but before all that happened i cried, and cried and cried and pooped, and pooped and pooped and cried some more. i was also able to go on unemployment for a small amount of time. judging by your use of the term 'loo' i do not know what work programs are available to you.
i wish you the best of luck--and take care of yourself!
-bunnybabe

How did your visit with the new GI go?

When I was in England, I read in the paper that people in Scotland seem to be getting better healthcare than people in England and Wales. Something about the Scottish version of the FDA approved the use of experimental and super-expensive drug treaments for cancer patients with no other options, while the England FDA won't approve payment of those same drugs. And that this apparently isn't the first time that Scotland has okayed tests or treatments that England's not allowing. Maybe you should look into going to Scotland. Gosh, at the very least they're a lot more friendly, on the whole, up there than people in London, so I think they'd at least commiserate and feel bad for you being so sick.

I know it's hard to do anything when you're on the toilet all the time, but going out drinking is the absolute worse for that. Do you think you could find a new social group that did things that didn't revolve around drinking? Maybe a book club at the local library? I went to a historical re-enactors market outside of Coventry and was pleased to find that re-enactors in the UK are as nice and friendly as re-enactors in the US. Peas in a pod, I guess. That might be something that you could get into on a limited scale that will allow you to meet folks and hang out, but not be in such a high-pressure social situation, and not feel that you have to drink--knowing that drinking will make you feel worse. Also, if you find that you have any skill with a handicraft, you may just find that you don't need to work outside the home; you could make clothes or shoes or pottery or whatever for the re-enactor crowd from your home, taking away a lot of the stress of working somewhere else and with other people, and it would allow you to work at odd hours, as your guts dictate. Anything you wanted to learn to do, someone would be willing to teach you.

I hope you got some good results from the new doctor and not just another brush off.

oneday,hello I only pop in every now & then. I'm usually on the lupus board. When I first became Ill I only used ibs forum & I recieved alot of good info here. Your post has really brought back some memories for me!! First of all **** can your job! You do not deserve to be treated like that! Shame on your co workers! ( I know the eyes rolling & the here we go again routine all too well!) Carma could turn around & bite them in the butt! You need to let your doc know that you are having trouble preforming your job, If you are unable then let him know. This really upsets me because I know there is help out there, it may not be a glamorous life but it was intended for people in a crisis not people that don't want to do anything. Your doctor could help you if he would. You sound alot like me, If I get worked up then I'm 10 x's worse. And this really sounds stupid but I never even realised that I was worked up until my mother pointed it out. Please just hang in there. Trust me there is people out there who are pulling for you & care!!

we do hvae waht is called sick pay. we aslo hvae benifits for people unfit to work. the proble,m we hvae is geting thme. because of a number of people try to claim thme who are not entiltled to thme it is hard to get on the benfitis. my gp is trying to get me to see oppuacpational health. these are the people who put you on these benifts. my work won't send me there so my gp is trying to get me there. all our laws seem to beifit the employer not us. i hvae my appeal hearing tomorrow so see what happens.

In the US, if you get fired and you can prove it wasn't your fault (i.e. you were sick all the time and can prove it), then you are entitled to unemployment benefits. If you quit, though, you don't get them. So for people in the US, it's always better to get fired than to quit. I know they have unemplyment wages in the UK, but I don't know what it takes to qualify for them. But gosh, I saw a news story about immigrants getting unemployment benefits and other benefits (like English classes! We make our Mexican immigrants learn English on their own and they seem to do quite well at it), so surely you, an English citizen, can qualify for something.

Of course, that sort of statement would be a laugh in the US; we all know that citizens don't qualify for anything over here. My mother was once told that in order to get food stamps for me and her that she would need to quit nursing school and her part-time job. Oh, and that she'd get more money if she had another kid!

I have never heard of a waiting period of over a week for unemployment. You could also apply for social security disability if they say you can't work because of you condition. Of course you dr. would have to concur.