IBS? Hm.

Heeeey

So it all started 4-5 years ago, I was at work when I got a sudden need to go to the toilet.
Had to leave work as I was not feeling well at all.

I came home, thinking it was just something bad I had eaten, but nope

Several weeks later I still had this feeling, like I had to go, but I didn't have to go. Also somedays I had to go 4-5 times, other days 0, and sometimes not for 2-3 days

I had a good life with great friends, a job, errthang.

I went to the doctor, they found out that I had H.pylori in my tummy (had to take the camera down my throat); I was like "**** yeah, I'm going to feel normal again!".

Nope.

Took some meds for a week, 4-5 different ones, they said I would feel bad and puke a lot etc, but I didn't

Time went by after the meds, still felt the same, rumbling in my tummy, diarrhea, feeling of not being 'empty' after going to the toilet, lots of gas, etc.

I tried to just go on with life as normal, but when going outside the symptoms would be 100x worse, so after a while I quit my job, lost touch with most ofm y friends, and stayed inside 99% of the time. I was about 18 years old so it was kinda lame as ****.

I lived at home, my mum not very happy with my having no job etc "Lazy bum get a job blablabla there's nothing wrong with your tummy you've been on meds so ur fine stop lying blabla."

So years went by, 2 years later I had been sitting in my room for 99% of the time, the only times I would go out was if I had to go to the store. I skipped meetings with the welfare-people just to not have to take the bus, resulting in me having 0 money.

Mum even more mad "blablabla get work ur not sick bla"

I didn't even get myself to the doctor, because I had to take the bus.

So now at age 24, I've just been to the doctor, he hooked me up with a Colonoscopy (?), which was pretty lame but heeey I want to be normal again, right. DIdn't hurt as much as I thought it would though.

So after I was done with that the doctor said he couldn't see anything unusual, and said it was most likely IBS.

Sooooooooo, I'm atm waiting for the results from the test;

The thing is though I've been googling stuff about IBS a lot, and a lot of people seem to have it really bad. I'm just wondering though if the symptoms I have is common for IBS, because I reeeeally don't want this to last for the rest of my life. I'm hoping its something else that can be cured. :/ For me it's bad enough, I wouldn't want it any worse trust me, but I seem to be able to control it at least a little bit. It's just that ****ing feeling that I'm going to crap myself, but I kinda know after all these years know I wont, but that feeling, its the worst ****ing thing in the world, also a lot of gas, and if I hold it in, well I can't. I also get some pain from time to time, feeling of being 'full' in my tummy.

I've tried a lot to make it get better, I've tried drinking Apple Cider Vinegar (Read it on the interwebs that it was good), it didn't make much difference to me though.
I tried smoking weed, which only enhanced the feeling of having to go to the toilet (atleast for the first hour after smoking) but after that hour it would relax me and I would feel pretty good.
I try to eat regular, and not too big of meals, as that makes me have to make the poop asap.

Anything else that might help?

And does this sound like IBS?

Either way though it ****ed up my life pretty bad, and I don't know what the **** to do now. :-<

And all these people, like my mum especially, and my dad too, complaining about that it's "not that bad, you're not that sick"

crap, I wish I could have them feel how it was having this for just one day; they would freak the **** out.

So yeah I don't really know where I'm going with this post, but I just want to let someone know how I feel, nobody I know believes me when I tell them it's THAT bad. And that makes me just even more stressed and the symptoms worse.

but yeah as I said I've read a lot about people who have it way worse than me, people who have to suddenly go a lot more often than I, like when I was on vacation = being outside with a lot of people = makes me nervous, and makes the symptoms even worse, but I could still handle being outside for hours without having to go to the toilet, even when the symptoms are at my worst. And then when I suddenly get the feeling of having to go I could hold it in for a few more hours, being all coldsweaty and feeling really bad though. I guess I have a mild IBS? Dunno

Thanks anywas love you all xoxo

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Post Edited (Derpherfer) : 2/18/2013 4:38:41 PM (GMT-7)

Hi there,

I have same problem and it sure sounds like IBS to me. It's a terrible thing to be afflicted with. You're constantly afraid to go anywhere and if you do, you map out where all the toilets are beforehand. I've had it for years now and although I, like you, have tried everything - very little helps it seems and the pain, when it comes - is totally debilatating. I am now taking a probiotic supplement from Swiss Herbal but am still not sure if it works or not, as it seems to one day but not the next.

Consider yourself lucky you can "hold it" for a while. There have been many times I have not been able to and it's just about destroyed me with anxiety and embarrassment. Travel is out of the question for me too, anywhere longer than 10 min. to the next toilet.

One thing you can be sure of is that stress will make it very much worse, so tell your mother to back off. She has no idea of what you are going through. Good luck