Gas and Relflux

Ok so I've been really constipated. I've taken all that I can for it. I've been limiting my diet to softer foods. I do have at least a cup of coffee a day. It's hard for me not to. So today I decided to do a water enema after searching about enemas. The last and first time I did an enema was a nightmare so I opted to use warm water. Last time I used a fleet one which left me in bed the rest of the day. So today I opened the bottle and poured it out and replaced it with water and warmed it up. Well I couldn't hold it in no matter how hard I tried so all I got out was the water. Later I used a glycerin suppository. It was painful and kept it in for about 5 minutes. I got a tiny bit of skinny stool out. But all night ive had gas and pains. Now I have reflux. I just went to try and fill the bath to relax but I bent over and my Gatorade came up. I have a horrid fear of vomiting so now I'm back in bed with my heating pad hoping I don't get sick. I'm so miserable. I ate a sandwich today with leftover roast beef. It's the mist solid thing I've had in weeks.

So I have that and my anxiety is through the roof over this. I wish I had someone to talk to. But everyone I know is asleep. This is so miserable.