Posted 12/13/2016 2:14 PM (GMT 0)
Hey guys
I'm an infrequent poster but I'm hoping someone has some advice for me here because it's starting to really get me down. I'm 28 and about 5ft 6 tall, and in the past 5-6 years I had agoraphobia and as a result have developed ibs. The agoraphobia is mainly gone due to a lot of exposures and training, although of course I am still more anxious than your average person at the moment - it probably will take a while until I'm my 'normal' self again.
Essentially my problem is my inability to put on weight. I don't have diarrhoea, but I have a big issue with multiple bowel movements per day. I have been tested for IBD and after everything was diagnosed with ibs. Which is fine, whatever, it would make sense what with all the anxiety stuff. So generally if I'm particularly anxious the first thing to happen is I lose my appetite and I really struggle to eat anything. When I'm at work the most I will eat for lunch is two slices of toast, and I'll maybe have a few biscuits throughout my 8 hour shift. It's not ideal but I recognise that as the anxiety improves this will get better.
I currently weigh between 7stone 7 and 7 stone 13 (I cannot get past 8 stone no matter how hard I try!) I know I'm too thin and I can't stand people constantly talking about it and how jealous they are etc, it's genuinely terrifying me that even when I really push myself and eat as much as I physically can, all that happens is I have even MORE bowel movements! So for example in this past week I ate maximum amounts Thursday Friday Saturday Sunday, and I had six bowel movements yesterday and two so far today. Does anyone else have this issue?! It's like whatever I eat doesn't even touch the sides! I'm seeing a dietician in January and I really hope they can help, but man I am on such a downer right now with it. Plus I have my work's Christmas party on Friday and I know how many comments will be made about me :(
If anyone has any advice I would be so so grateful. Hope you all are having an ok time in the lead up to Christmas! :)