Ugh I am Sick

My heart goes out to you, Barbara. I wish that I could somehow ease your suffering. As I cannot, I will be sure to include you in my prayers this evening.

My best wishes,

Nina

Feel better soon.
gentle hug...

Hi Barbara Lee,

Warm hugs from the northwest. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. I hope you feel better soon.

Laura

Hi Donna, Laura, Amy, Joy, Fran, and Nina:

Thanks ladies for all the prayers and positive energy. I sure have needed them. Saw my PCP today and she said that she's had the same thing for the past 14 days. She said that she has a perfectly working immune system and it took her that long to get better. She still sounded yucky.

She said since I have NO immune system that she expected this to last anywhere from 21-30 days for me. She said it's a wicked viral bug. I'm bringing up paste like green goop. She listened to my chest and said no pneumonia at this time. However, I sound like I may have bronchitis. She decided not to give me antibiotics at this time. Said if I not better by next Wednesday to come in and be seen again. Of course, if I get worse to be seen right away. They are worried about antibiotics because last infection I had it took 30 days to clear it up and that was using 3 different IV antibiotics.

Also, saw my cardiologist, he's still trying to figure out if I have an issues with tachycardia or an arrhythmia that's serious enough to make me stop breathing. On an off topic subject, hubby's family are getting together for Thanksgiving. Well, it's a 12 hr drive for us and hubby doesn't want me flying. Also, our daughter doesn't get off from college until the day before and has to be back Sunday. Well the way I am now there is NO way I can travel. However, I feel bad because I've been sick all summer and we couldn't go the two times we planned. I know my in-laws aren't very understanding when it comes to my health. So I thought my daughter an I could spend it here at home and hubby go to his parents.

Well, my daughter called her Dad yesterday, frantic, apparently if I am as sick as I have been over the summer, she's afraid to be left alone with me. Her finding me nearly dead last June 5, 2011, has really affected her. I was so upset, I NEVER meant to upset and worry my girl. Hubby said, I have to understand she was watching me die before her eyes. She did call 911 that morning, but she froze and couldn't talk to the operator. Hubby, had to do that.

I just so hate this disease, my daughter was traumatized over it, and my spouse can't go places, w/o worrying he's gonna come home and find me dead. The guilt I'm feeling right now is HUGE.

So please keep the prayers and positive energy coming my way. I need it desperately. Hope you are all well and having low pain. I'll keep you posted.

Hugs,
Barbara

Hi Barbara, Thank you for the update. I have been praying for you and hoping to hear that things might be improving. Glad the doctor is keeping an eye on the whole situation - helps when the docs have first hand knowledge of the "bugs".
Please just worry about getting better right now. Thanksgiving will happen later and you can deal with those issues when you are feeling better. You must do what is right for you and it sounds like your husband and daughter are in total agreement on that so don't worry about anything else. Maybe the three of you can have a quiet holiday season this year and aim for a bigger get together in the spring or next summer when you are feeling better. It is hard, we are sick and then we are plagued with guilt for being sick. Seems rather unfair! Just rest for now and you will start feeling better. Once you feel better there will be time to tackle something new.
((HUGS))