Posted 11/23/2015 7:50 AM (GMT 0)
Hi everyone:
Thank you so much for checking on me and caring about me. I have to say, right at this moment in my life I feel like, NO ONE, but you all care about me.
As I mentioned in my previous post that my foot is causing me serious issues and I can't seem to get one freaking person to pay attention to it. I saw my Rheumy on Friday and in he walks into my room with an ultrasound machine. I asked him what was he going to scan and he replies your wrist. He mentioned that he was quite upset that no one scanned my wrist when they first admitted with the scare of Necrotizing Fasciitis.
He mentioned that I might have had a micro bacterial infection in the joint that would never respond to antibiotics. Needless to say I'm not happy, about this information. Anyway, he looks at my hands and the wrist, does the ultrasound and that's it. Remember I did tell him MY LEFT FOOT HURT. He didn't even look at it, mind you this is what happened with my wrist at the end of September and I ended up having emergency surgery. I mentioned it to him that my PCM told me not to come in and just ordered x-rays, and that he didn't respond to my email for 4 days until it was to late. His reply was well your PCM was wrong not to see you and honestly since he'd not seen photos of my arm he didn't realize how much trouble I was in. So from here on out if I EVER have these symptoms I'm to call him and the hand surgeon right away. He didn't mention what to do if it was another joint.
My foot at the moment, is so bad I can't even stand up. I woke up with it swollen and red. It's been that way for a long time, by 7pm tonight though the scar from my incision is burning, it's really swollen, hot to the touch and I'm now as of 2am running a low grade temp of 99.9. I run normally in the 96's. At this moment I KNOW I NEED TO GO TO THE ER. I can't get myself to my car in the driveway though.
My daughter was in my bathroom at 1:50am to take photos of my foot for my doctor's email I'm sending. I mentioned I needed to go to the ER and she said that she didn't know if I did or not. That it wasn't good if I did, she went and got my ice pack for me and went on to bed. Hubby was up about 30 minutes ago, and while he was in the bathroom and I told him about my temp and asked for an Aleeve, (not suppose to have it as I'm on blood thinners) don't have anything else in the house. I mentioned that I think I might need to go to the ER and and he said "Oh no" I'm sorry you feel so bad. Then he crawled back into bed. I swear I hate my life and I hate feeling like the worlds BIGGEST burden. I'm terrified I have another case of septic arthritis in my ankle and the pain is beyond painful and I can't get myself to the ER other than calling 911. I know you are all wondering why I don't wake up my family, well my daughter won't be able to drive at night tired we'd have a car accident before arriving. Hubby, is teaching until Wednesday and he doesn't have a back up teacher he can call on. At times he's VERY dedicated to his job, I'm sure you can imagine how VERY frustrated I get. I do understand though that he wants to do a good job.
I know there is a shuttle bus that goes from the military base that's near us to the big Medical Center. Again, though I need to get to my car to drive up to the base. Do you ever feel as if you're being tested over and over again. Why I have NO IDEA. I try to treat people kindly and like I'd like to be treated by folks. I swear I'm cursed and will burn in the fiery pit once I'm gone from this Earth.
Well, I'm going to ask for loads of prayers please, my Orthopedic Doc has said he's afraid that I'm going to lose my whole leg. Please pray that I don't, I know I'm hurting right now all the way up to my knee cap. I've got a nasty case of the chills, shaking from my temp. So, I"m gonna go and hopefully I'll be able somehow to get my Dr TODAY!! I'll post with an update when I know something. You all take care and I hope you have a great Thanksgiving, I hope mine isn't spent in the hospital, my Rheumy's nurses parting words to me, were to make sure I stay out of the hospital for the holiday. Whenever, people decide to remind not to be ill and in the hospital, guess where I end up? Jinxing me I wonder? Have a go get in my bed see ya's later.
Hugs,
Barbara