I've had it. No one knows what is going on with me. I still have not heard back from the test on friday or the test on monday and now I have this pulm. doctor who says I don't (think) you have lupus in your lungs. What?????? he did no blood gases, no xrays, nothin! He gave me a free sample of x
openex inhalers and sent me home. That was it. I'm taking some time off to bat my head against the wall. I'm tired, frustrated, and practically broke from burning so much gas running from one doctor to another doctor. Oh he did say that the reason my back pain was so bad is because my lungs are to big for my chest and it's causing my ribs to push backwards.
but some day I might need a transplant. He's full of it. If I have A/I I'm not a candidate for transplant. I said from what I understand most people wait forever for a transplant an not get one. He said yeah they usually die first.
. So why bother telling me about
a tranplant maybe some day. To give me false hope? I don't want false hope. Who asked for it? I'd rather have a doctor be straight with me instead of one that will pat me on the head tell me to by an exercise bike or treadmill. LMBO !!!! By the time I got either one of those things in the house I would be to out of breath to use it! Don't get me wrong. At this point my quality of life is ok most days. I'm beginning to think though that there will be a lot long time for a A/I Dx than I thought. I have the very high titers and I have lots of symptoms that are responding well to the pred. and the plaq. I remember when i first came here I was always so swollen and fatigued I could barely drag myself out of bed. Than after 6 months on the plaq. I started to notice a difference. I also read this morning that it's not uncommon for Lupus patience to have extr amounts of fluid around their heart! Dah every time I get (flare) I have it show up. Anyway I'm just gonna mosey on into the sunset. Who knows maybe on my journey I'll find a little intelligent life out there. I know I'm just being a total ranting soapbox queen right now. I swear if it wasn't for my PCP I'd give up on all doctors. I just need to stop thinking about
this stuff for a few days and maybe go buy myself somthing LOL. (if I had any money)
Ok I'll shut up now. I'm gonna put a sign on my door saying enter at your own risk!
love ya guys
carol