Hi Hippi. I'm so sorry you're having such a rough time. I think Rosie, Carol, Marji and Lynn have some great suggestions. I have one more: have you tried methotrexate, imuran, or cellcept? I've been on each of them to help control lupus. Just last week, I told my rheumy that I tried decreasing my pred from 7mg to 6mg (the crucial dose when adrenal glands kick in) and I flared. I've been on 2 grams of cellcept daily since January. Rheumy advised I increase cellcept as tolerated until I reach 4 grams daily and
then decrease the pred. My point is, prednisone isn't the only drug in our arsenal as long as you're willing to try something different. Regarding the other suggestions, mommy guilt is a hard thing to break. I know you want your kids to have the best life possible. I wasn't able to break mommy guilt and now I'm in sucker parent mode: supporting my 23 y/o daughter and fixing all her problems. BTW "sucker parent" is the term my shrink called it and she said I must force Tory to grow up for her health as well as mine. I'm working on it. Try to take care of yourself Hippi. I'm sending you lots of positive energy, prayers and much love. Butterflake