I have been dealing with quite a few symptoms on top of having a 15 month old (very) bouncing baby boy and I am having so many feelings of frustration, depression, and that I am not being a good enough mother to him because I am in so much pain daily and have absolutely zero energy at all. My arms and legs keep going numb, I have 3 large patches of
open sores on my scalp now that add to the irritating pain, hard lumps that are getting larger daily on my head (especially behind my left ear), swollen lymph nodes all over, a bad rash on my face and chest, bruises all over my body as if I was beaten and yet I've been in bed most of the week, and severe pain in every bone of my body and joints! I can't hardly wash or brush my hair for it falling out in globs and am just feeling miserable! I still have no diagnosis to what is wrong and my family doctor told me the only rheumatologist that will take my insurance can't see me until--NOVEMBER! I was hysterical with him on the phone this week and told him that I just literally cannot deal with this severe pain and fatique anymore! I feel like my whole life is crashing down around me with the doctors standing by to spectate rather than help right now! I have asked them if they could just try putting me back on one round of corticosteroids which relieved my symptoms almost completely last year when a similar bout happened after my son was born--and he said that steroids are too dangerous to just prescribe without a diagnosis in place! They don't seem to care that I am in constant unrelenting pain and I don't think they realize how long a week of this is to a person dealing with it--muchless the prospect of a few months!
Is there ever any relief? I can't sleep at night I am hurting so bad and the IC that I also have causes severe pelvic pain as well. My doctor there said that insurance won't cover the necessary pace maker until she proves to them that she has tried these treatments for it first for the next 2 months (weekly treatments) yet they are only scheduling me every 3 weeks because there are too many patients to do it weekly--so that too is looking like it will drag on forever at this point where each hour is just agony. I find myself questioning what the point of life is if I am going to feel like this every day. It is beyond a "low quality of life" point to a NO quality of life right now. The only thing keeping me from going completely crazy is my son and husband. If it weren't for them right now I really think I would completely give up. I just can't take this much more. I feel like I have literally been hit by a truck or something and just all over severe pain. I just don't understand the doctor why he won't at least try the steroids again or give me something to help relieve this! The only tests that are showing the doctor anything at this point (from what I remember so far) is that there is arthritis showing in several of my joints, scoliosis in my back, and my rheumatoid factor (RF) is pretty elevated. My ANA is negative.
Does anyone have any help for me? I live in Georgia... I am really desperate and just can't deal with this anymore. I just want my life back. I have been working on my doctorate, working, and have my family which is so important to me--and I am barely able to get out of bed the past couple weeks--at all!!!
Thank you to anyone who can help me keep focus right now. I am just really discouraged! Nicki