Hurting!!!

Sunday and Monday were two of the best days I've had in two years, so tried to live a normal life again, and today my body is reminding me that I just can't do that. It's so darn discouraging. I feel like crying but I know that getting depressed won't do any good at all, but I feel so sad today. From my neck down I feel as though I were dipped in hot oil. My joints are red and swollen and my poor right hand looks and feels like a steam roller ran over it.

I haven't done anything extraordinary. Sunday I woke up with so much energy that I baked a coffee cake, and went to the grocery store. Some of the kids came over to swim in the afternoon and brought friends with them so I put out a simple meal for them and took a dip in the pool. Yesterday I worked in my home office, cleaning out files etc. and went back to the grocery store. And that's it.

I guess the good news is that I was reminded what it feels like to have energy and joy and to be able to really interact with my children again. Today, though, I'm back to the couch. I don't think my hands will even let me knit today so I'm having a little bit of a pity party. I have to keep reminding myself to take it easy when I have a good day every now and then.

How on earth do you working gals do it?

Here's to a better week ahead for all of us.

Well, if you don't mind, I'll join in on the cry/pity party.  I am having a terrible time with nausea this last week and just feel horrid all around.  Dh is in a foul mood...which is upsetting me, and normally I would just snap back a smart comment and joke.

I'm sorry you aren't feeling well Pat. {{Hugs}}  It's so emotional to have a couple of good days, only to have that taken from you the next.  I don't think any of us get used to dealing with that aspect of things.

Let's have our party today, and then tomorrow start fresh.    Stay inside too, it's hot in OK today!

 Hi Patty, Well i just got home a short time ago and wanted to check in on you. I hope you were able to get some rest and have a little better frame of mind. I know it's hard not to get depressed when you come crashing down after feeling so good. I wish I had an answer for it. Is the cymbalta for depression? How long have you been on it? Does it seems to work good normally? Have I asked enough questions yet? Did you make an appt to see your doctor? It sounds like you may have to increase some meds for awhile.

You know I love ya

carol

Hi Pat--
Been absent lately, not feeling terrific due to extreme heat and sun. I got so disgusted, I started going out at night just to be outside. This sun sensitivity is for the birds. I'm sorry you were so sore and bummed out. I had a good day on Sunday and Monday too, wrote alot and did great writing, then bam, today, just can't get it together. Mind just not able to put it together, itching all over, sick, hurting, nauseaus and just sick of the inside of my house. I'm glad to hear you are doing better. I don't have any doc visits until sept or oct so no hope of any improvement, they all think my sensitivity is sort of weird like, why it hurts my eyes. But you know docs. I'm gald your pred is working and you feel better and have company and are doing better.

(((Carol)))... try to get as much sleep today as you can. I'm praying that you can get better to get those few things done and that you aren't getting sick again... I know you just went through a doozy.

Take Care

Hi Des,

I'm hurting and stiff so I took a little extra prednisone. I'm not tired like I usually am though and that's wonderful. I'm getting a massage this morning and I hope that will help me get over some of this pain I'm having. Even though I'm hurting, I feel like I continue to improve because I'm having more good days than I used to.

You're sweet to ask, Des. It's so nice to wake up to a friend asking about me.

I have to feel better today so I can root Carol on while she gets on those sexy jeans and cowgirl hat and goes to the concert tonight. Carol, I'm sorry you didn't sleep well last night. Do you think it was excitement about meeting a cowboy tonight???? :)

You're a sweetheart, Des. Thanks.

Pat, Im really sorry to hear you have been going through a rough time. Are things any better yet? I can really relate to that frustrated feeling. It is really frustrating that just trying to live a "normal" life and doing normal everyday things can put us into a flare. It stinks that even on good days we have to rest and conserve energy. I still haven't completely learned my lesson about that yet. Jeannie, I hope you are getting some relief. Carol, I hope you were able to enjoy your big night out. I haven't read through all the posts yet, so maybe you posted something about it that I haven't gotten to yet. I missed everyone and am glad to be back.

Pat,

  I'm glad your getting a little break from the pain in the evenings for awhile....(((hugs))). I hope the pain gets better for and whole day soon.

  I'm sure your daughter will do well in college and her new apartment. It's hard to let go of our kids when they grow up... .

  Take care and keep resting. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

                                                      Babs

Jen, I'm sorry you had such a rough week. I know just what you mean about the mack truck. There's one that drives through my bedroom several times a week. I wish I could shoot the driver right between his eyes!

I'll cross my fingers and hope you win the lottery. If you do, you'll get a husband pretty quick because men will be coming out of the woodwork. :)

I'm so sorry you have to work while feeling this way and hope this is a better week for you.

Love,

Pat

PattyLatty said...
Jen, I'm sorry you had such a rough week. I know just what you mean about the mack truck. There's one that drives through my bedroom several times a week. I wish I could shoot the driver right between his eyes!

I'll cross my fingers and hope you win the lottery. If you do, you'll get a husband pretty quick because men will be coming out of the woodwork. :)

I'm so sorry you have to work while feeling this way and hope this is a better week for you.

Love,

Pat

That darn truck driver.... ;-)

Heck no, if I win the lottery, I'll stay single and have some fun. My boyfriend would HATE to read this....haha!

Thanks I hope you have a better week as well. If the truck shows up, dive outta of the way ;-)

Hi Pat,

Sorry...I've been an absent friend lately. It sounds like you've been managing your pain in a way that's working for you so you can "be there" for your daughter during these last days that she's home. I so understand that! I'm glad you've found a good balance; just be sure if it starts getting out of balance that you back off a little bit.

I'm thinkin of you and wishing your daughter much success,

xoxo emmie

Hi Patty, just wanted to check on ya and see if you were getting any better. They are talking rain thursday I hope that doesn't make your pain worse.

love ya

carol

Pat, like the saying goes, "when it rains, it pours". I'm sorry you are getting struck by all of this at once. Dealing with insurance is never ever a simple thing and is always stressful. Everything that has happened to you would be hard on a healthy person. I don't blame you for feeling overwhelmed. I don't know why all these things seem to happen at once. At our house our clothes dryer is dead, now our dishwasher is making weird noises and our fairly new van just neede a costly repair. Were you able to rest today at all? I imagine it's a little harder to really rest like you need to when you have so much going on. Please try to take care of yourself. Love and hugs