I think you all know that I was in the psch system for a very long time after childhood abuse. I was a bit of an hysterical person in my young adulthood because of the way I was brought up but never, never did I feel this depressed and even more never did I feel PARANOID, which I seem to have in large dollops. I simply cannot understand it.
I was usually a weakling and just had blubbering outbursts in the psych system now I have angry paranoid periods where I verbally attack. It is so uncharacteristic.
Is it the tiredness of being so ill? the illness (es) themselves, the neuro implications? The way I was first treated by the consultants as a nutcase and now I dont know who to trust, but even twin who has parkie is getting attacked verbally and I really really dont mean it.
I feel the whole world is against me and I dont trust a fly.
Its like a character 'make-over' and its the wrong colour lipstick!!!!
Any suggestions.
xxAnn