I am sooooo over this already!

Oh my goodness. Someone needs to tie me down. I do not want to do this treatment anymore. I want to go home now. I do not want to be away any more. I feel fine, until I go in for my treatments and take all of the stuff that they have me on. I spent 3 days in bed. Even the maid is giving me a hard time now. She told me to go and take a walk..well I told her! I told her to go and take a walk....lol

I have 4 bloody days of this treatment to go. Three more 6 hours treatments of edta. It sucks. I want to go home!

I know I am always so darn cheery about all of this bs...but my gosh! How much does one person have to take??? I have been doing this since Oct.

I am a lab rat and I am tired and I am not going to take it anymore.

I don not think that I can last the week. I really think that I have had enough. My mind and heart are not in this anymore. I am done, stick a fork in me. I am done.

Hang in there! But I hear ya....being a lab rat can get very, very tiring. And that is an understatement. But you can do it....not too much longer.

Marie - Yes, hang in there. You're so close and almost hopefully done with it all! You can, and will, do it!!

Maybe it is too much! What is EDTA (if you are up to explaining)...if not I'll do a search. Is that what you are doing in AZ? My 1st LLMD had me on so many abx, I really thought I was dying. I would do it differently now. But hindsight...blah, blah, blah...

You must miss your kids...now that would be sooo rough.

Martha,

I'm confused?? I thought a big reason why you went to Envita was because you were sick of taking antibiotics and thought that they were dangerous. I was under the impression that Envita was mostly alternative and that they did not use antibiotics. But now, as you say, you are on tons of them. Can you clarify?

Runningirl

hey runnin,
Yes you are right. I had done big doses of abx, from the day of my tick bite and then more later with the german dr. and none of it worked for me.
they say here that the lyme knows how to curl up in a protective shield of many sorts and that the abx just go floating by.
so they go after the outer shell and then have the abx go in and kill the bacteria. they also are more concerned about boosting the immune system and sort of give you body a jump start to protect itself and deal with the disease itself.
That is my impression anyways. So it is a complicated treatment with many different things. Like the Ozone therapy. Which I like by the way. I like it that my blood had all been cleaned many times.
Since most of my lyme was mental. Maybe this is why most of my herx is mental, and why my mood is so bad!
I have not been pissed like this in years. Guess anger is something that I am going to have to learn how to deal with ...lol

Hi Martha's Vineyard,

Yes, I really thought I was dying at one point! And I really can't even go on strong antibiotics anymore, because they put me straight into bed. My 1st LLMD was pretty much learning at the same time I was about Lyme...and although I love her for taking on Lyme patients and diagnosing me, I feel she didn't know what she was doing at times. But this is a journey for all of us, huh?!

Anyway, what I would do differently is not take so many abx that I felt terrible and constantly herxed. I would probably do light abx with supplements or something holistic. People say a herx is suppose to happen, you get worse and then feel better. I never felt better. Whenever I was on the abx I felt terrible (my LLMD at the time didn't know about detoxing either). But, big but, I may not be as well now (I do have good days now) if I didn't do the abx. So I would never condemn them and I think it's different for everyone. The part I haven't figured out yet is what holistic approach works best. I guess we are all working on that.

Another thing my LLMD didn't push was probiotics, so I wound up with a hugely stubborn systemic yeast infection. I think we all know about that now, though. And finally she didn't know about co-infections at the time...and either did I. So I went on IV abx and found out 2 years later that I had Babesia...so I had to do more abx (oral). So I would have done a lot differently!

But specifically, which has more to do with what you are going through, I would have done it lot more slowly and gently.

Good luck! I really know how hard this is and it really does stink to high heaven.

Post Edited (susan1122) : 2/3/2009 11:42:27 AM (GMT-7)

Marie, I am so sorry you are feeling so terrible. I wish there was something I could do to make it easier for you. You've really been an inspiration to me and so many others here and your sense of humor has kept me going. You only have a few more days and then you'll be back home with your precious girls. You have many people pulling for you and I'm sending you lots of positive thoughts and hugs. Stay strong and hang in there! Valerie

I am getting a bad feeling about Envita, I'll be very honest with you. I called them last year and was told they did not use antibiotics for Lyme. Now after all of your "alternative" treatments they are doing the antibiotics. Doesnt it seem to you like they are a little desperate?? If something works for someone I am the first to say "go for it." But honestly Marie, I am getting concerned now. I am not being critical, but something doesnt seem right. Know what I mean? And like someone here advised, listen to your body because no one knows it like you do... D

Stay strong! This'll pay off!

I'm sending you lots of hugs!

I am on day three today. And I feel better. Only two more days. One long day tomorrow and then a mineral day Friday. I think. Then I have a flight out on Sat. at 4 pm to Florida. Yes I have already started packing!
Thank you for the support! I mean really guys! I am not usaully not such a cry baby. Thank you for all the direct letters of incouragement. It helped so much.

Good luck Marie! We're glad someone's well !