Suicide due to Lyme disease symptoms - hypersensitive hearing

How very sad. My thoughts and prayer go out to her and her family.

There are so many days I wake up and it's the first thought that crosses my mind but somewhere deep down I still have some hope left. It's impossible for those who do not suffer from this horrific disease to possibly understand.

its so sad, and sader yet i can understand it too.

my prayers are with everyone who suffer from this awefull disease

I posted this link on facebook. If more people can know about LD, maybe they will insist on early diagnosis if it comes their way. And maybe their knowing about LD will eventually lead to others working harder to find ways to treat long term lyme successfully. I feel so sorry for this lady. Yet I can so understand her stress . May the Lord bless us all with a return to health.

I feel this way daily. I actually just told my mom about the story so she didn't think I was insane for talking about feeling like it's my only option sometimes.

But like you, Scorpio, there is a TINY (apparently that's all it takes) part of me that is holding onto a TINY bit of hope...and I worry that I'll go through with taking my own life and then end up finding out it could've gotten better.

I get sound sensitivity too. Actually, all of my senses get heightened for some reason but I don't have it nearly as bad as this poor lady had it. Can you all imagine asking a doctor to make you deaf? I couldn't even begin to imagine what she went through.

Sometimes, I think I have it bad but then I read about or talk to someone that is so much worse off than me.

Jelaine,

I'm like that with lights too. My family and I went to the circus a few years ago and they had a strobe light going off on one of their performances. Omg, I thought I was going to die. It messed with my eyes really bad. I had to close my eyes. After that, the loud noises started getting to me. I felt like I was on a roller coaster. It was like a dominoe affect once it started.

When I first started having heightened senses, it started with a bad panic attack then amplfied noises, bright colors and strong smells. I was in the hospital waiting to be admitted and this lady walked by me with perfume on and it nearly knocked me out. I couldn't take it. It gets worse when I am herxing.

This disease is overwhelming in every sense. Please, Please remember, NOTHING in this world is worth killing yourself over. While at the time it may not seem that way...

Please in you are ever in this position and you have no family or friends to talk with or that even remotely understand, please use the number below:

Get Help ! If you or someone you know needs emotional help, please call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline during a crisis. You can reach the Lifeline by dialing 1-800-273-TALK (8255) .

Who Should Call?

- Anyone, but especially those who feel sad, hopeless, or suicidal

- Family and friends who are concerned about a loved one who may be experiencing these feelings

-Anyone interested in suicide prevention, treatment, and service referrals

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Website: www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org

james i so understand how you feel. many time i say i am in this new group call the living dead. as to be alive you do and enjoy. well for me with lyme i can no longer do and i suffer with extram pain. no joy in that. but i am not willing to let lyme disease win either. so i will fight and win till i am able once again to do and enjoy.

remeber there is always someone who will miss you if your no longer there. its a tuff battle no doubt.but stand strong for the others who will be bring up the rear.

praying for us all

be there done that meself. but i also know i can and will fight this. nothing is finaly. but dead is no going back from that. at lest with lyme you can have a fighting chance to get better. maybe not 100% but if its 80 to 90% i'll take it.

to me finding this site is kinda like my lyme life line. i know i am not alone here. as most friends and family do not understand how i feel. but there is always someone here who does and is there to offer advice.

just this week i have started with the nuero issues, i didnt have up till now. other then my eyes. but i havent been able to walk for almost 2 yrs now. i am in extrem pain daily. but i keep praying for answers. 1 day they will be filled. i can not give up on that belive.

and remeber we are here for ya. if you need to you may always email me

i'm a granma we have to be strong..lol maybe not in body but in mind, and thats half the battle. keep that in mind. if you need to wright it down and place it all over if this will help keep you going. whatever it takes for you to get thro the day. from all i have read i knw its no easy road for us.

i'm not sure but maybe it would help you to not overthink it so much. as my granny always said dont barow trouble. hard to not do in our case. but then again find something you can relate to and fix on that.

me its knowing that when i beat this battle i will be helping others. as i do plan on helping in anyway i can. be it getting the word out and wake up people. or like winnning the lotto and setting up trusts for people to get treatment. anything so no one has to fight for treatment as i am doing right now.

James,

We have all been where you're at now. I was in dancing for 9 years. I used to be able to do all kinds of things that I can't do now. Before I ever found out what I had, I went years going from doctor to doctor, running test after test.....drawing so much blood that I had bruises up and down my arms. I was in the hospital a few times too. I was told that there was no Lyme here so they weren't even looking for it. I thought I had Aids or cancer because I felt so bad. I went from one day of feeling good to the next day thinking I was dying. It was horrible. I finally gave up on doctor and would not go back. Not even for a sinus infection....which was good in a way because that's how I discovered supplements.

Finally, I had enough and found an LLMD and did the test. Came back negative.....twice, but my doctor was convinced that I had Lyme. Anyway, for about 3 months, I could not get out of the bed. I could barely walk to the toilet to use the bathroom. That was very hard for me. I went through the grieving process big time! I felt like I didn't want to live like this. I was being selfish. I have a husband and two daughters plus a family that loves me. You have to remember that. I know how hard it is but you will be leaving people behind that love you.

If you ever need to talk, you can email me anytime.