relationship killer

On top of my medical problems and financial ruin it seems my 5 year relationship is all but finished (and I think much of it has to do with my illness).  Guess it just wasn't meant to be.   It's sad how much this illness can take.  I guess I should look on the bright side (no kids).  Another fun day. ; )  Oh well. 

This illness can def. take a toll on relationships. It's hard to deal with for most people and it takes a very special person to stay with someone through all the good and the bad. I am so sorry you have to deal with this on top of everything else. I went through a breakup of a 6 year relationship when I first got diagnosed and was basically house bound for almost 3 years. I was 26 and I thought I would be alone forever because of lyme disease. It turns out, that relationship was not meant to be and I went on to get well and 2 years later I met my future husband and we have been together now for 7 years and have a beautiful 23 month old daughter.

So, just when you think it can't get any worse, there is light at the end of the tunnel and you never know what is waiting out there for you, sick or not. You will find it.

Stay strong and stay focused on your health.

Thanks for the kind word Jeminij. In many ways it got to be too much work to maintain the relationship. In the long run I think it is probably the best thing. Everything seems so messed up right now. I just came off IVs (and felt great while I was on them) and now everything is getting out of control again. Its hard to stay up-beat and optimistic with constant ups and downs. I keep trying though. ;)

Thanks again.

Achievinggrace and Cajun,

I don't necessarily blame my ex-gf. I think she tried and probably has issues she needs to deal with as well. I don't know that I would have done a better job of being supportive if the roles were reversed. It's a difficult role to fill (no doubt). I give a lot of credit to our loved ones that stick by us through this......

Jelaine,

Awesome story!

Bucci,

Funny. I just want someone to make coffee, food, and drive ;)

looks like guys are sticking it out in health and sickness for their loved ones. and girls are not, what went wrong?

I don't think I explained my post well. If my husband was sick, I'd stick by his side no matter what. I was trying to put myself in his shoes and I don't think I'd like staying with someone like me. Most of the time, I'm grumpy, depressed, hard to deal with, angry and complaining. Who in their right mind would love being around someone like that? LOL.

Thanks Cajun. I appreciate your comments and well wishes (as well as those from others on the board).

I would stay by anyone who was sick and always have. But that it just me. God fearing...lol
I had some great men come and go in my life when I was sick. But it became hard for me to focus on what in the world I had to do to get better. And in many ways, for me, it was harder to have to worry about them being effected by my illness. I just had so little to give. And had two little kids that were really needing me, more than them.
My time had to be dedicated to trying to make everything appear to be great to my kids..and making everything appear to be okay...but also having to make a man feel better and not to worry too much. It was too much work for me.
ha...besides. One of my boyfreinds would get scared when I was get chest pains and not be able to breath just during...well you know. Making love. And then the fact that I was soaking the bed every night and had my house temp. set on 67 with the fans on. I was always burning up with a fever.
It just was hard for me to try to entertiain and chear up my boyfriends, who would think a nice stroll on the beach would be good for me. Well...not with vertigo and a fever and a migrain...I would get soaked just stepping outside.
I still keep in touch with these great men. And they cannot believe the new me. I just never felt good about being a burden on someone else. I had to spend as much time with my kids and that was all that I could handle.
My little girls were my rock. And that was so hard for them. But others who did not know me, must have thought that I was drunk, bumping into walls..and having trouble putting words together. I just got to where I was tyring to fake being well. Trying my best to cover it up.