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Posted 4/25/2012 10:12 PM (GMT 0)
that is what my goal is and im in trying to do.
it just sucks not knowing if its herx reactions, or my lyme in general,
or just my anxiety and ocd,
or now the side effects of the zoloft,
if my heart is messed up? the most scary thing
or the green vibrance?
i never thought at my age i would be feeling so hopeless like this. im afraid that i wont wake up the next morning and im afraid of what my gf would have to go through and my family as well if it were to happen. i know im being selfish, people have cancer and other bad things, then i question if maybe i have a tumor or cancer or something else. Even after the blood work and physical i had done. now i feel like i need another ekg since the last was 3 years ago, a ct scan and a mri. maybe i really am obsessing too much over my health.
Posted 4/25/2012 10:18 PM (GMT 0)
I can relate to what you're going through - I'm only 24, having dealt with this for 15 years, though only in the last year has it been unmanageable - the uncertainty is sometimes the worst part! Try keeping a symptom journal to see if you can make any connections between symptoms and things you're doing or taking - I do this anyway for my doctor's records, but it does help me as far as feeling a little more in control.

It's okay to be a little selfish right now - you're scared and there's nothing wrong with that! Feel free to email me if you need someone to talk to!
Posted 4/25/2012 10:34 PM (GMT 0)
yes the uncertainty is killing me. i know i can walk outside and get hit by a car. but the thought of dying right now is making me want to curl up into a ball. my symptoms are not even horrible. just some aches and pains. im guessing the night sweats and the heart scare was the zoloft. i know lyme can cause anxiety, but i think its past the lyme, its the way ive trained my brain when i became a hypochondriac 3 years ago. i keep thinking im going to die. and it makes me depressed thinking about losing my girlfriend of 2 years. who has been all i could ever ask for.
Posted 4/26/2012 12:23 AM (GMT 0)
The bright side of having trained your brain to hone in on certain things is that you can just as easily train it in the opposite direction! Have you tried cognitive therapy exercises (you could probably find some information on it online)? That kind of thing can be really helpful in this sort of situation.

A big part of relationships is supporting the other person. Worrying about losing your girlfriend isn't going to help either of you - why not focus on showing her how much you appreciate her, sort of shift your perspective a bit?
Posted 4/26/2012 12:28 AM (GMT 0)
i really do show her how much i love her and appreciate her. she is 2 hours away at school so there is a bit of separation anxiety. anxiety runs in my family.

then i look into lyme and how people say it is never out of oyur body even when you test negative. im not sure if thats whats affecting me, the lyme but i believe it can be beat.

i know im probably not dying like i think i am, atleast i try to think. the doctors say im fine but i dont like believing it. i guess its more of a personal problem. im just like a scared little boy. i want to live a long life and have a family etc. then my dreams feel like they are stomped because i dont know whats going on with my body.
Posted 4/26/2012 3:06 AM (GMT 0)
To borderlyme
What are you doing for your seritonin levels. It's sounds like your using herbs or tinitures of some kind. Would like to know what your taking. I agree dvlsfan 30 should stay with a professional but it's not bad to seek other opionions from several docs. My spelling is getting terrible along with memory. I'm just trying to express my trails with the antis and I know many people thats had the same experinces as I.


I think we both agree he needs to use his mind to fight this. An idle mind is the devils work shop. The devil here is anxiety.


Positive thinking is a very powerful tool. People who over come have the will to live.


God bless and chill out go to an old folks home and see what some deal with. You need to put things in perspective. Pat
Posted 4/26/2012 3:07 AM (GMT 0)
To borderlyme
What are you doing for your seritonin levels. It's sounds like your using herbs or tinitures of some kind. Would like to know what your taking. I agree dvlsfan 30 should stay with a professional but it's not bad to seek other opionions from several docs. My spelling is getting terrible along with memory. I'm just trying to express my trails with the antis and I know many people thats had the same experinces as I.


I think we both agree he needs to use his mind to fight this. An idle mind is the devils work shop. The devil here is anxiety.


Positive thinking is a very powerful tool. People who over come have the will to live.


God bless and chill out go to an old folks home and see what some deal with. You need to put things in perspective. Pat
Posted 4/26/2012 3:22 PM (GMT 0)
i am really trying this positive thinking. im trying to get myself out of this slump
then i fall back on thinking

-is it my lyme causing the aches and sensations
- is it ms?
- is it a tumor?
-is it the tooth i had a root canal on, put the crown on a month ago and to this day is still sensitive to cold?
-is it just the depression and anxiety?

i dont want a perfect life, i just want to be there in the future the best i can for my family and girlfriend. i am strong, i want to overcome this i dont want to think im dying. sometimes i feel i would be better off though because i have all this negative thinking. i am constantly googling symptoms of diseases. i am constantly checking my left eye to see if its more blurry. i have glasses and a stigmatism in my left eye so it never has been perfect.

i feel so lost

Post Edited (dvlsfan30) : 4/26/2012 9:25:17 AM (GMT-6)

Posted 4/26/2012 8:59 PM (GMT 0)
was your temporary crown also sensitive to cold. it takes awhile for nerve endings to die back. also does crown go below gum line so as not to leave any of the ground area exposed. If its a front tooth it will not be as well insulated as say a molar. unless there is exposure in time it will stop.

If hot starts to bother you its the root canal. You need to call dentist
Posted 4/26/2012 10:23 PM (GMT 0)
it seems there is a little exposure. the gum receeded a hair because i have been working to keep the area clean. i dont think there is a leak though it seems its sealed. my friend said it took her a year for hers to stop.

i guess i just have alot going on in my life and i need to take it a step at a time. atleast im alive i see it as now
Posted 4/27/2012 2:17 AM (GMT 0)
Brush your teeth up and down. Be gentile at gum line. It sounds like your in a better state of mind. That will aide in all areas of your life. Stress is a very serious health risk.

You never did say if your temporay was sensitve also.

Let me know.
Posted 4/27/2012 2:22 AM (GMT 0)
no it was not. i actually liked how the temporary fit. once the permanent got put on, it needed to get adjusted and it was always cold sensitive since it got put on.

i have another tooth awaiting a crown as awell and a dental implant. im going to be in debt from that alone. plus a tooth on my right has a very very small amount of pain on and off when i chew on that side so im guessing it might need a filling or another root canal. i took care of my teeth but my mom is italian, so my diet lots of pasta, sports drinks from the team sports and everyone indulges in some sweets now and then as a kid. i guess im paying for it now for some of my teeth. its really frustrating going through all this at this age.

suprisingly i feel alot more relaxed, i continued the zoloft so i have something to keep me together while my girlfriend is around and i try to turn all these problems around.
Posted 4/27/2012 3:28 AM (GMT 0)
I'm glad the zoloft is helping. But it takes awhile to build up in your system. I would go back to dentist I think he has a bit exposed probaly in the back. Get other tooth looked at soon it might be able to be saved with a filing. Once there gone its too late. Good luck and all the best.
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