Hi Bethany,
I'm so sorry to hear of all that you have gone through! Yes, it is all very scary!!
Depending on the dosage of those first abx and how long you were on them, you may not have had enough treatment to get rid of the infection(s). This could easily be more than just Lyme Disease as well, since ticks carry all kinds of diseases. Having Bartonella or Babesia will often prevent healing from Lyme disease.
You will need more treatment, if there is no way you can afford to get in to see a LLMD (some borrow money for treatment or ask a relative), then there are herbal/natural protocols that you can use - at home - to treat yourself that work quite well. Although you will have to be disciplined so that you use them as you should and in the way you should.
To look into the natural/herbal protocols, here is a link that will take you to the more common protocols used:
www.lymediseaseresource.com/Protocols.html I would caution you to not use the Salt/C protocol as it's not very well thought out in my most honest opinion. Large amounts of salt like that will harm the body, among other issues that I have with this protocol.
The ones that have been used many times over, with good success and were developed by highly experienced Practitioners are the safest to use, like Buhner's, Zhang's, Marshall, Klinghardt, & Cowden protocols.
If you would like to check into more LLMD's in your area, just in case you can find one that will work with you on payments or something, let us know, as the Mods can share the list of LLMD referral sites for you.
I would suggest that if you haven't already, please start by reading through our "New to Lyme? Start Here!" thread. It's packed full of important information and links, as well as symptom lists, and even a list of questions to ask your LLMD or other Lyme literate practitioner.
We also have a really great search function here that can help you narrow down what threads will pertain to you and your specific set of symptoms. In order to stick with just the threads from this forum, all you need to do is to type the word "Lyme" before entering the other search terms.
We can most definitely help you get through all of the information, answering at least some of your questions, help direct you to find more information, and to be here to support you as well!!