Cheese with my whine....

Oh, no I can't have cheese because I've given up dairy (and gluten, sugar, alcohol)....
Just need to vent, since I'm feeling quite low today. Yes, I have made progress, but its moving so slow! It just feels like life is passing me by. Yes, I'm more mobile and able to do a few things for myself, but I'm still so disabled and have such a long way to go. I'm just so fed up with everything, trying to figure things out, researching, detoxing, supplementing, everything just takes so much work. And to be quite frank I've become so jealous, I've taken myself off Facebook but every once in awhile I go back on, which is a bad idea since it just makes me feel jealous/angry, then I feel guilty (because I know there are people way worse off than me!), then I feel sad because of the fact that there is so much pain in the world (not talking about my situation, but other people who suffer so much). I'm trying to be a bit more constructive with my time, so I've been knitting scarves and blankets for charity and writing letters for amnesty international, but even those things wipe me out after awhile. I feel like a big lump on the couch, only good for taking up space and watching tv. Today I saw a commercial for McDonald's ice coffee (yes I know they're so bad for you) - those used to be my treat- grab one and go grocery shopping. Imagining pushing my shopping cart around while drinking an ice coffee sounds like heaven right now, but I feel like I'm never going to be able to do that ever again, so I started crying, which then caused me to feel guilty, because I realize how lucky I am that I never had a problem affording groceries, and on and on....well, just needed to vent. Thanks everyone!

Prairiegirl, we all need to vent about this illness. This is the place to do it because we all can relate. I miss my weekly treat of McDonalds sweet tea, as it reminded me of my years down south. It is also the second summer I have had not had ice cream :(. So I can relate!!! My treat now is plain greek yogurt and/or a smoothie with almond milk. Find something that you can consider a treat...

Great that you can knit! wonderful thing to do for others. Helping others often helps us more.

:)

Thanks for the replies. I have done the frozen banana and its really good. Right now I'm addicted to organic frozen berry blend - cherries, blueberries and black berries- its my desert, haha. Good for you, but I still miss having junk food once in awhile.

As Flowergal said, we all need to be able to vent, and this is a good place to do so!! Boy!! You should have seen some of my rants a few years back!!! LOL!

It gets better with time - I know that doesn't help much, but it's true. And even though I'm done with treatments now, I'm still sticking to my diet, although my diet was never very strict to begin with. It just makes sense to stay on a very healthy diet even after I finished treatments, since I don't want to slide backwards to where my body won't be able to fight off "invaders" again!

ah Prairiegirl, thanks for the vent. I am in the exact same place right now and feel so trapped sometimes. Reading your vent made me feel better. I know there are so many worse off than me...both with this disease and other illnesses. But sometimes I just need to feel sad for myself. I usually have a good cry and then try to tell myself to keep fighting. I know there is something good that will come of this someday, we'll be there for someone else.

The frozen bananas are a great ice cream substitute. Also soak raw cashews in water for a couple hrs and add to the blender. It makes it creamy just like dairy. I'll add stevia or agave and a bunch of coa coa powder. Yum.