thinking out loud

hello all, it appears i have had lyme since a child. i am a woman in my late forties on the West coast. i was diagnosed a little over a year ago, based on CD 57 results, and high IGGs on other viruses, etc...i have definitely been caught in a loop of ongoing infections: for example, I'll be struggling with sinus infections, then it'll be the organs (like gallbladder), then brutal head pain and pressure, then it'll be the gut (had nausea all summer long), and so it goes. of course a lot of ongoing digestive issues, constipation, joint pain, chills, extreme fatigue, memory loss, ADD, severe depression and anxiety. i've been doing a lot of self treating with herbs and some homeopathy. And though the physical manifestations are unnerving, the mental/emotional ponds are more so. it seems i have been in an almost constant state of severe anxiety and depression, and as i get older, it feels like dementia. i am terrified at what to do next, have been looking around, but feel mistrusting of most of what is offered out there. i went for a bout of one antibiotic via IV, and that almost killed me (my gut shut down for four months), while the doctor told me to stop eating and do enemas at home. Another one of course wanted to stick a port in me and put me on the cocktail for a few years.
I will say that while i suffer a lot and daily, i seem to have a strong constitution somehow, and most people will usually say i do not look sick. i attribute this to my beloved dog who gets me going and walking briskly every day. but of course, this statement only reinforces that "it's all in my head". i don't feel i am capable of further self-treating. am looking at websites of places like Shea. I considered Jernigan's but after speaking with a couple of patients, and considering the distance factor, i got cold feet. There are some LLMDs on the West Coast, somehow the ones I am acquainted with (through the web and networking) do not seem like a fit.
What do you all think?

i have had "peri-menopause" symptoms as long as I can remember, Deejavu! no doubt it has gotten worse as the years have gone by. i also have endometriosis. i am fairly well educated with re. to the Lyme zillions of protocols out there, and know of the ones you speak of.
how long did you Lyme for, before treating it?
as i said, in my case, most of my life, undiagnosed.
drinking large amounts of artesian alkalinized water obtained locally seems to help a bit.
i don't eat gluten or dairy, and i do take herbal tinctures. my greatest issue at this point and for a long time is getting my gut healthier (severe constipation, etc...remedied somewhat by Intestinal Movement/Health Force).
thanks for your input.

Hi Lillybe!
I'm so sorry that you too have been ill for so long! I was first infected at the age of 7 - I'm 50 now. But with what you seem to know already, I'm sure you will be able to find what treatment your body needs to heal! I also got worse on abx, so I would encourage you to use Holistic medicine to heal.

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Razzle, very interesting bat the Aura Ars.
How di you take it, in what form? w guidance fr practitioner?
http://www.foleyhomeopathy.com/studycards/Aurum-Ars_SC.pdf

yes the whole constipation thing is insane. we are talking zero BMs. When I was on Mag, it stopped working after a while!
I know the article you mentioned, it lis very interesting. the only is, i 'm not sure I should be going on a round of GI antibiotics, per the doc's suggestion... did you?
I am willing if it will help solve this life time problem.

what are your top symptoms, SleeplessNJ?
sorry to read you are not doing well.
i am using the HerbPharm tinctures for mood, adrenals, blood warming, what else? until i can get my gut healthier, and hopefully will be able to absorb any sort of treatment better.
sweet dreams!
ps same here everyone loves to say: oh, you look great. i do have good skin...

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