Can you describe your anxiety?

That's about how I'd describe it when I get it. It's not constant and not every day. I think it's my worn out adrenals, at least partly.

I hope you have a Merry Christmas too, and welcome to the forum! I'm sorry you're going through this at a young age. Learn all you can and I hope you get the treatments you need to heal.

Good description, Healing! That's pretty much what I experienced as well, although I also had extreme panic set in (like when you can't find your small child in a large crowd) any time anyone asked me to do anything. Even the smallest, most simple task would send me into that extreme panic.

I blame most of my issues on my failing adrenals and thyroid being so out of whack, besides the infections that were still ongoing at that time.

I am very, very blessed to not have to deal with those any longer since I've healed.

Marie, I understand completely how you feel. We hosted Christmas at my house so that I would not have to go to some one else's house. My wife felt that this would help with my anxiety if i was in a familiar environment.

My anxiety these days has been pretty bad just thinking about the people that were coming and how I was going to deal with the holiday. I think that the Holidays are are very bad time for those of us who suffer from anxiety and panic attacks.

On Christmas day I managed to go downstairs to say hello to our guests and spent some time with them at the time we opened the gifts but pretty much just stayed in my room all day. What a way to spend Christmas.

Mine seem to be what everyone else is describing. And I definitely think it has to do with adrenals. I notice that my anxiety is much higher/worse when I'm over tired/exhausted. (like right now) I feel like my heart is racing, cannot put my finger on it, but feel like something is very wrong or something bad is going to happen. I am actually waiting for an argument with my husband (it never happens though), I feel like he and everyone else in the world is upset with me or mad at me for something that I haven't done because I'm so tired.

My anxiety has prevented me from living my life to the fullest. I have had it for a few years, and probably all along due to this infection. It is very disrupting. Sometimes a herx reaction for me is extreme anxiety as well. I see that when I am herxing I have more panic attacks. My doc says it is from the bart being "pushed around" on these medications. Its not fun. Its sad. I know how you feel and I have different forms of anxiety. Tuesday while driving I had a full blown panic attack, I thought I couldn't breathe, felt like I was getting extreemly dizzy, and thought I was going to pass out, I was so afraid! My poor 7 year old daughter told me to pull the car over and she was very scared. It stinks.That was the worst panic episode I have ever experienced so far. I really didn't feel well at all. I honestly didn't even realize it was a panic attack I thought I was going to die. :( I guess Bartonella causes severe anxiety. I know I have Bart because of my stomach issues.

@ Healing98, your anxiety is really bad. I can still sit with people, but not for too long. I will be celebrating December 31st with husband, just going out for dinner, maybe go and watch the firework. I'm not going to Brussels with our friends to a loungebar, I know I will probably freak out: loud music, too many people stuffed together, too hot, no personal space, strange bodies pushing me. I think I would slap someone... lol. Especially now, with my anger levels going through the roof.
Glad for you though that your wife is cooperating with how you feel. I hope your anxiety goes down soon... wish you lots of good luck with that

I think some of what you folks are describing are precursors to seizures; not that you're going to really have a seizure, but that you're over stimulated.

Last fall, I was at a beach house with a bunch of women of varying ages, and they decided to do something called ecstatic dancing. They turned the music up really high, and started dancing. I freaked. I had to control myself to keep from running outside. Then, I went out on the beach, and even looking at the moon hurt, bc it was too much light. I had to find the darkest place on the beach, and I just sat there, getting bitten by sand fleas. I just wanted to crawl into a little hole.

It's so hard to feel that way when you want to socialized. I had a friend who couldn't even stand going to a quiet restaurant with low lighting to drink a glass of wine. Now, she did have seizures, and ended up being bed ridden.

The thing is, how do you explain this kind of thing to people? Most people have no clue why you can't stand light, noise, loud voices, etc.

Margaret

Binduspire,

you made me think of my really bad anxiety years, years ago. This bad memory has it's advantages - lol.

There was a time I thought I was going crazy... I knew deep down that I wasn't, but I could not understand why and how I had gotten like that. It went on for years... and got better when I was treated by a very good accupuncturist who was giving me chinese herbs too. He never discovered I had Lyme or Bart though, he was just working with my symptoms.

Just an example: whenever I took the tram and bus to work, I would first of all make up a worst case scenario: If someone with an arm would step on the bus, what would I do? Go and lay under dead people (how long could I pretend not to breath, so he wouldn't see I was still alive)? Hide under a seat? Get out of the bus (when I was close to the doors). Surrender?

Those were crazy times, I was never at ease. Always at guard....

I would return to my house at least 3 times to check all the lights, the heating, the stove, see if there was no bad contact between plugs and sockets (I would push all plugs to make sure they were fine).
After I used my iron, I would place it on the stone floor, in the middle of the living-room, far away from possible inflammable material.

I must sound really really really really crazy - lol.
Luckely I don't have these ultra heavy long episodes anymore, and whenever they come and peep, I fight so hard against them, take some of the herb I got back then to calm down. Going through this for years, and now with treatment, I have noticed that it happens whenever I have Bartonella flares.

I can have a good laugh about it now, but it was pretty confusing back then. I know the why and the how now, and that really makes a difference in how to handle those episodes.

MarieLS

They did it by blood test, refused to do a saliva test. My levels were very very high in the evening... gp and dr said it's normal in my situation, no further steps to be taken (it's like this over here, stuck between walls if both drs say no). I need to restart Ashwahanda, I had stopped it for a while.