I need help!

I am in massive panic mode. I have until tomorrow at 5:30 to decide about moving to a new house, and no, it can't be extended. I thought I had decided to stay and not move, because I love my house so much, and I figured I would just get rid of tons of stuff. Now, both houses have tested positive for mold, according to the Lowe's test kits, except I messed up, bc, well, it's a long story, but I didn't do the first kit in a very scientific manner. But it looks like mine is way, way worse. The cabin's kit only has a few spots.

Sophie, my dog, got sick again, and I tried to rush her to the ER vet, but I got lost, and didn't get there on time, and could no longer reach the on call vet. She's kind of ok, I think.

I think it's a cascade effect, which happens when you have to confront your own issues, but I also had a tick on me today, although so far no rash, and it wasn't a deer tick. I think bad luck follows me when I seriously have to confront or deal with my emotions.

My primary-care provider, who is Lyme friendly, really wanted to put me on abx immediately, but I have a history of c. diff., so I said no.

I thought things were going to get better, because I was managing to clear out a lot of stuff in my house, and was happy about it, but now I have to make a very important decision, and am unable to do so. I think once I decide a few things and get back on Cowden, assuming it doesn't give me diarrhea, things are going to get better.

But right now, I'm panicking really hard. Meanwhile, I have company coming tomorrow night, and since I've cancelled on her before, I think she'll get mad if I cancel again. Knowing her, I think I might risk losing her as a friend. I know what you folks are going to say, but I don't have oodles of friends.

This is embarrassing; I know I've gotten panicky on this forum before, and I always came out of it, but this is not so much a depression panic as an anxiety panic. My heart is racing, and my heart rate is way up.

Now I feel like apologizing, so sorry! I don't know where else to talk about all this stuff!

M

teragram,

I'm very sorry that you're going through all of this. It's OK to be panicky and anxious, you've got a huge decision in front of you. I think sometimes for Lymies, normal, every day kinds of decisions can be difficult, but given what you're facing, you have the right to feel the way you're feeling. Even a healthy person might get panicky about that.

I agree with Garden about the friends issue. Since being diagnosed, I've definitely found out who my true friends are. They are definitely few and far between. If this person is truly a friend, she will understand!

Talk all you want darling, that's what we're here for! I think we've all done it once or twice This is definitely my safe place when I need to unload.

I'll be praying for you! Have faith that things will work out the way they are supposed. I'm a firm believer in all things happen for a reason.

Good luck and God Bless

I'm glad to hear your friend helped you out today. I hope the day has gone smoothly. Let us know who you're doing.

I'm sorry for the way it ended after all the time you waited, but maybe it wasn't meant to be. I'm sorry you had a miserable day, but I'm glad it's behind you now. The decision was made for you, so you won't stress over whether or not you did the right thing.

A dehumidifier sounds like a good idea to me.

I'm glad Sophie is doing better.

Speaking of dogs, I got a text message from my daughter today, saying this would be a good summer to get another dog. She will be home this summer for the first time since she began college. We lost our dog about 3 years ago and she and I like dogs a lot. She has done so well in school, so it would be nice to get one for her to help train, but we'll see. She'll be working full time, so she won't be around a lot.

You take it easy now and get some good rest.

So glad the day is behind you! Hope you find a better place!

Stacestar, That helps a lot anyway! Cowden gives me diarrhea, but right now, I don't care!!!

Will reread all your posts!!

Am tired!!!

Margaret