Posted 10/30/2014 2:06 PM (GMT 0)
Heartbreaking to hear all that you dealing/suffering with. I hear the issues with funds, so one thing that you might be able to start that would be very helpful, and not overly expensive, is getting and starting to brew/drink the Essiac Tea. It might not seem like much help, from a tea, but the tea is very medicinal for chronic illness, and it would be a good place to start treatment.
Remember, anything that brings you to your healing, such as learning breathing styles and dry brushing the skin before showering, are ALL powerful, possitive treatments for our hurting bodies/minds. Even without funds for meds/supplements/dr, we still have available to us things that we can do NOW.
Please don't give up hope that you can get the help you need. Many of us, me included and just a year ago, were exactly at the place you are right now. It is scary, painful and it sucks. Being alone in this is one of the most painful things about L/co. But, because we have us here, we are not 100% alone, so having us can be, has been for me, the lifeline 'I've' needed to get help, understanding, a release vent/steam valve, and support.
Also, for me, I talk to anyone and everyone about what I'm going through, because I never know if I'll talk to someone, who knows someone, that could be a part of my healing puzzle. I'm too ill to be proud.
I am healing, I will continue to heal and so can you.
You are further along on your path to health today, than you were yesterday.
Think about it.
I applaud your strength to get help and figure this out. Please keep in touch. We care.
Oh, and that out of body stuff, I understand how that feels, and it's awful. This can and will go away with treatment. I think for me, it's Bart effecting my central nervous system, thus my brain and how things are or are not getting processed. Walking without the feeling of my legs beneath me is one of the most horrible feelings I have. Plus, being in a bubble, and also feeling like I'm in a movie or a dream and I can't be heard/seen by others, and I can't get out, or wake up. It's scary. But, I try to touch something solid and concrete, like a wood table or door/wall. I try to physically connect to something to help me 'ride it out.' If I can. Otherwise, I just deal with it. I remind myself it's normal for the L/co. It's NOT ME being crazy. It's not YOU, either.
I'm sorry you are dealing with this. Truly. We ALL deserve the TRUTH.