Looking for LLMD near Fresno, CA

Hello,

I have a very extensive history of illness that spans at least 30 years. I was diagnosed with fibro about 13 years ago. My story of struggle with health is a very long and painful one, as I am sure many of you can relate. I won't go into detail other than I feel like I am dying a slow and painful death. I feel so incredibly sick inside it is beyond words. I have spent thousands of dollars on treatments and testing which includes both conventional and alternative medicine.

So how did I come to Lyme? (Well it is not because any dr. suggested it.) I went to a chiropractor recently who is an upper cervical specialist--her adjustments are supposed to be very gentle. My neck pain is becoming very severe. I became increasing ill after each adjustment. Since the 3rd visit I have been bedridden. (This response has happened to me in the past with other chiros) I then started researching and made the lyme connection. For years I have been trying to piece together what went wrong with me so many years ago. It explains so much--including the mysterious butterfly rash I had on my face, rashes on my body, weight loss, illness as a teenager. And, yes, I was exposed to ticks--spent the summers outside in a rural area of southern california. The dr. at the time thought I had lupus, but the tests came back negative. He just sent me on my way with some cream for the rash. If only he had thought to test for lyme, my life may have turned out so different! I am having a really hard time right now dealing with this realization. My body is weak and I am feeling very unstable emotionally. It is a lot to process. I am trying not to "if only" myself to death.

I have thought for a long time that I had an underlying problem with infection. The only time I saw any improvement was when I saw an integrative dr. who was treating for infections/building immunity--but not necessarily TBID. I saw him bc I was so sick, including a migrane 24/7 and drs told me I was fine. I basically dx myself with Candida and then sought out this particular dr. At that point I had about 20yrs of illness and pain, including mono(test confirmed). Now it makes sense--opportunist infections.

So I am desperate to find an LLMD. This is the last thing I have to try. It is my only hope. I know since I may have had this long time, it will be very difficult to treat. The only reason I held on this long is I have two children. My husband is one of the few support people I have left in my life. But even he is doubtful about the lyme and trying to seek treatment. (He has witnessed many failed treatments.) I am worried too that I may spend a lot more money and it may not help. Any advice is appreciated. Thank you.

Girlie, thanks for the support and encouragement. I just submitted the changes on my profile and I will check out the ILADS link.