scared of antibiotics

I'm doing the ozone IV treatments and I'm also using essential oils. Plus my doctor had me on a hormone to eat up excess estrogen which caused massive hot flashes which became intolerable so she put me on progesterone. I had a recurrence of a bad migraine in my eyeball with an aura and the trigger finger in my thumb came back and I can't bend my thumb. Last time I was at the doctor my blood pressure shot up so high that they wouldn't let me leave until the bottom number was under 100. I am feeling anxious all of the time lately and I normally have really good blood pressure. I got home and by the morning it was normal. Had it checked at work a few days later it was normal

I spoke with my doctor and while the progesterone helped with feeling hot all of the time it was still waking me up at night. She decided that maybe the Babesia was flaring up and thought that in addition to the ozone IV I should go on a short 3 week course of antibiotics. The plan is to double up the glutathione IV dosage and have me start Doxy, Rifampin and Zithromax. The last time I tried antibiotics in 2012 it was so bad that I had to stop as I started having deeply depressing suicidal thoughts and I was in too much pain to tolerate it. I went 18 years before any treatment so I think it's really hard on my to try and kill it now.

the thought of trying them again has me terrified. I went and picked them up today and then used the free blood pressure machine at the pharmacy. 165/ 97 I'm pretty sure it's anxiety.

While my work situation is better now and they're allowing me telework as I need it and flexing my hours to make doctor appointments I'm just plain scared. I keep looking at the pills and I can't bring myself to take one.

Tomorrow I go back in for a Glutathione/ mag IV and will talk to the doctor about it. I feel like the anxieties have to be under control before I do any more.

I just don't know what to do

~Lovehealth

That would be me... staring at the bottle... i don't feel good about antibiotics anyway... and then to feel pressured... not good :(

Have you tried to distract yourself with meditation?

You can find a ten minute guided meditation on Youtube...
*It might help to calm the anxiety... so that you can get a
better perspective on doing what is right for you.

Thanks for replying. You know how we get into these states where everything is confusing, that's me now

I'm going to speak to my doctor tomorrow. I think you're right I'm herxing with what I'm doing now. That means stuff is dying. Just not comfortable with abx.

I think my blood pressure is also up because the IV girl has stuck me and missed so many times and there is no one else there to try. The last two times she finally got me on the first try but now when I go there I just get really worried about it.There were times when she would try and get me on the 5th stick, if I acted like it hurt she'd say I was making her nervous. Luckily, she gave her notice and the woman that they're trying to bring in is really good. When I first started going there my blood pressure was normal in the beginning and then high when I left. Eventually it was just high before and after.

I feel like if I add antibiotics I'm just going to herx more. I'm also more comfortable with herbs.

I really do think babesia symptoms are worse lately, from what I've read these are pretty classic. Feeling hot at night (like wakes me up kind of hot), migraines in the eyeball, wrist and hand pain. Luckily my cough is long gone. I'll let you guys know how tomorrow goes

I am detoxing. I use the sauna and the epsom salts baths, plus the IV glutathione and mag is supposed to really help as it's a strong antioxidant.

I think my diet isn't as tight as it should be. I'm gluten and dairy free but have had a few sugar slip ups lately. Probably eating too many carbs.

I do the baths 2 - 3 times a week and the sauna at least weekly but try to get in more. Just got out and I do feel a bit better. It always relaxes me

Thanks for listening. I was freaking myself out staring at those bottles knowing full well I didn't want to take them