It's taking everything I love, away!

So yet again ANOTHER of my favorite food/drink items I've become intolerant to...we thought it was caffeinated beverages causing the heart Palps, but it's coffee-even decaf! Ugh, it SEEMS like all the pleasures of life are slowly being stripped away; from not being able to wake-board w/friends on their boat, to carrying the Laundry basket upstairs- from food restrictions to relationship failures....I have had people who claim they love me, ignore me after I expressed my needs.

I HATE this darn illness, especially for the way it turns me into an emotional wreck(at times).
I hate that I'm no longer independent but DE-dependent on others to help out w/simple tasks
I hate that I'm not free to express to others how I'm feeling cause they take it personally-as if they've failed me(some have truthfully)!!!
I hate that I cannot enjoy food any more
I hate THIS, what I'm doing, having a pity party....

Alls I've got left is God-THE ONE creator, Jesus who loves me...He sacrificed waaaay more than I'm suffering! He bore the sins of the world!

Well, after all of my "hates", I can say "I love this forum"!!!

This is the best place to come for a pity party! Most of us have experienced some of the same things, so it's good for you to let it out here, rather than hold it in or talk to someone who doesn't have a clue about Lyme and co.

It's a lesson on patience! I'll be praying for you.