I had no idea what Bartonella was until I was told that I had it about
2 mos. ago. Then I ran and told several of my Dr.s here in Florida. My Dr. who had been treating me for depression for 4 years and also panic attacks, had never heard of it.
My depression had gotten to the point where I was very suicidal. I had many plans. My only fear was that I would not be sucessful. And well, that is was a selfish thing to do to my kids. But at that point I had been told that I could no longer care ofor them, due to all of my lyme issues. So, really. For me that was it.
All of the meds that he gave me made me feel worse. Regular doses of anything had very strong effects on me. And at some point they made me even worse. The panic attacks got to where they were happening almost daily. Everything set me off.
When I told my Dr. about Bartonella he typed it into his lap top right there and said..wow..it causes untreatable depression and panic attacks. Well...4 years later. Glad that I was able to be of service. He was happy to have learned this little tid bit from me and happily told me that he learns something everyday.
Lucky for him I like him alot. Otherwise I would have hit him with my purse.
But he is also the only Dr. that I have met that had eve admitted that he did not know something. And moreover, thanked me for "teaching" him something. That alone is a joke. He is brillant.
But why is it that the Dr.s out there who treat for depression do not have a clue about a disease that causes depression?
I now see the same thing happening to my 12 year old daughter who took a handful of pills this week. She too was covered in ticks in the vineyard. She too spends all of her summers in the Cape. I have told this to 4 of her Dr.s and all of them tell me that she is fine. Well....now I think that she has gotten everyones attention.
I am only posting this for one reason. And it is one thing for me to discuss all of my problems openly. But a whole other about my daughter. But if this can somehow help some other mother or father out there with a kid who is so depressed and trying to kill themselves.
Look into having them tested for Bart.
I was given Levaquine for 30 days for mine. I am not sure what made me better. I no longer want to die. I am not sure if it was all of my treatment for my lyme or what. I only know that I have my s--- together now. Finally.
But dealing with a sick child, it is the worst.
One day at a time.
