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Posted 4/16/2016 12:41 AM (GMT 0)
Back in January I took a job with a pet sitting company because my husband really wanted me to help bring in some money. From January until now it has been very slow because I'm the newest sitter and there weren't many new clients, which worked out perfect for me since I'm very easily exhausted and overwhelmed. I'm currently on month four of Cowden and have been feeling SO much better, like 85%.

In the last few days things have been MUCH busier. Yesterday, for example, I had a 45 minute dog visit at 8am and 30 minute visits at 11, 11:30, 12, 4, 7, and 9. Today I had visits at 8am, 4, 5, 7, and 9. I guess a normal person would point out all the free time I had between the visits. But I am just exhausted. I don't usually wake up until 9 or 10am because I feel so much better with those extra sleep hours. The thing is, I looked at my schedule and... I was actually off Saturday through Monday and had one visit on Tuesday. I've only really been working like this for THREE DAYS and I feel like giving up! Last night I had a panic attack and today I have been considering telling the boss I don't want anymore clients, that I want to just stay with the ones that I have.

My plan is to just get a good long sleep tonight and reconsider how I feel in the morning. I haven't felt the least bit overwhelmed with this job until now and I have a good feeling that it's because I haven't had time to sleep properly. I wish I could just quit and go back to being a housewife, but I know my husband is more content when I'm working and I feel better when I'm contributing. Has anyone else experienced this and how did you handle it?
Posted 4/16/2016 2:09 AM (GMT 0)
Well....at least YOU CAN work 'some'! I cannot even handle making dinner, or grocery shopping. I sleep MOST days until 11am as I have menopause insomnia. I get exhausted after just two hours of just standing or walking arounf...MANY Lymies are totally bedridden...

So its quite encouraging hearing your testimony of being able to pet sit even if its just part time! Also, its good for you, right?
Posted 4/16/2016 2:42 AM (GMT 0)
I'm so sorry Ravenclaw. I understand how frustrating it can be.

I think your idea of getting a good night's sleep and reconsidering things tomorrow is a good idea. Would there be anything wrong with staying with just the clients you have now (or maybe even dropping one or two if needed)? Even if you have to say "just for now".

I'm not where you are in your healing again (for me), but I do get those smaller anxiety attacks when my "plate" suddenly becomes very full for me. There no fun at all. I've found that Avena sativa tincture really helps me stay in better control of my anxiety.

I hope after a good night's sleep, you find this issue not so hard to find a solution for.
Posted 4/16/2016 2:53 AM (GMT 0)

Traveler said...
I'm so sorry Ravenclaw. I understand how frustrating it can be.

I think your idea of getting a good night's sleep and reconsidering things tomorrow is a good idea. Would there be anything wrong with staying with just the clients you have now (or maybe even dropping one or two if needed)? Even if you have to say "just for now".

I'm not where you are in your healing again (for me), but I do get those smaller anxiety attacks when my "plate" suddenly becomes very full for me. There no fun at all. I've found that Avena sativa tincture really helps me stay in better control of my anxiety.

I hope after a good night's sleep, you find this issue not so hard to find a solution for.

Hi Traveler! When I joined the company they told me I could tell them when I had all I could handle. The problem that I'm having is that every time I mention to my two co-workers that my schedule has me exhausted, they have to compare who has the most work. I know that if they find out I asked to have no more new clients, they'll gossip about how lazy I am non-stop, which is exactly what they did with another woman who had done the same and finally quit earlier this week. None of them actually knew I had Lyme Disease until today when I told one of the other girls. I told her I was thankful that I was eased into the company slowly for that reason and she told me "honeymoon is over."

Thanks for the suggestion! My anxiety gets pretty bad when my routine is thrown off. I currently have one Xanax left, so I'm going to be requesting a prescription for these kinds of "emergencies!"
Posted 4/16/2016 3:03 AM (GMT 0)
Oh my gosh, the gossipy people will even cause more stress than the job.

I am so very sorry. This is a miserable way to live, I know.

I have no giant words of wisdom but I will hold you in my prayers.
Posted 4/16/2016 3:29 PM (GMT 0)
Hold your head high - they have NO clue what you've been through to get to where you are now!! If you must say anything to them, tell them if they had been in your shoes, that they too would be grateful to just be able to leave the house a couple times a week - or to even be able to get out of bed! Never go into what you have been battling, other than saying something vague like chronic infections - don't give them more opportunity to gossip more.

And hold your head high (I know I've already said that, but this is important!!) - you have come through what many like them believe isn't possible. You are a strong woman that is climbing out of a deep dark hole and you have good reason to be proud of that, and ignore those that are willingly ignorant. You don't need them as friends anyway.

I sooo hope today is a better day for you!!!

Many big hugs from someone that actually understands where you have been and what you have come through!
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