Posted 7/24/2016 6:30 AM (GMT 0)
One big, happy family, aren't we? :D
My day was alright, though very long. I'm glad to be back home, in bed, resting my buns. I didn't do anything too pressing physically or emotionally, just lots of things, errands, and whatnot.
Thank you, everyone, for such a pleasant response. Though, I expected no less from you.
Denikeef - people say that about me a lot, but I don't see it. I'm just talking. I appreciate it though. I'm glad I can make a positive impression on people.
Psilorapter - I can get behind that. We've got a good team of moderators around here, keeping watch. I've seen a few of those sorts of situations break out, and they're always there to keep everyone in line, which I'm grateful for (you too, huh). I'm glad this is a place that you can feel safe, comfortable.
PeteZa - I really should have smiled a bit more today. I actually feel bad about my exchange with this one lady, she's a self-checkout attendant at Walmart. We got this new debit card with one of the chips in it, and I didn't know how to use it, the checkout started freaking out on me, so the lady had to come over and help. I explained it to her, and then she started showing me what to do, but the way she was doing it really irritated me. It was like she was talking down to me, as if I were a child or something. I called her out on it, and then she told me to calm down, when I was pretty calm, to which I said that she was the one acting out of line. She said she'd just let me handle it. I managed alright. I felt bad, told her thank you for the help, as I was leaving, but I don't feel that was enough. That may have just been the way that she talks to people, I don't know. It really felt like she was instructing me like I was some, no offense, intellectually challenged person. I mean, I am.. kind of, but just the tone bugged me. It was nice, helpful, but.. in like a really exaggerated, plastic sort of way. I think we were both kind of in the wrong, I don't know. She definitely deserved a smile.
Girlie - I hope yours was K too, if not absolutely amazing.
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needhelp4 - you're just as much a goofball as I am. But, much like you, I know all about that pit as well. I used to share that with the people here, but it's really not helpful. Like I said to begin with, they're good for emotional support, but a lot of the mental sides of it are things I've had to learn to deal with on my own. Nobody can make me happy, hopeful, optimistic, except for me, try, try, try as they might. Just keep crawling toward your hopes and dreams, both pertaining to health as well as whatever else you've got in your heart, inch by inch.
Traveler - we're still here, huh? :D, working towards the day that we can say, hey, it's completely behind us. Someday.
Happyjo - I don't know, man.. I might be a little more than y'all can handle. ;P
Kate - I have NOT found an LLMD, which sucks. Either they're too far, don't take my insurance, or are too expensive. I REALLY wanted to see the doctor that we discussed, but I was told by the receptionist that, even if he were taking new patients, I could not be seen there, because they do not accept out of state insurance, nor do they let patients pay out of pocket. Things may have changed since, I don't know? Shame, because he seemed like one of the best options. I'm just doing what I can for now, hoping to get to a place financially to where I can afford to see one for an initial visit (one of the long ones, with testing and just assessment of all my symptoms and whatnot), then periodically throughout the year after. There's one in Minnesota that sounds great, but I've been told that she is costly, because she does not do insurance at all. Also told she is good though, so might be worth. I'll shop around though, to make sure there's nothing better.
There's also a naturopathic doctor a couple hours away I've been meaning to look into, but our state recently make some changes to medicare/medicaid, outsourcing it to three different companies, so coverage has changed in some areas, and I don't know if she still gets support. I will check though.
Would be nice to have a knowledgeable physician helping.
Krimpet - you the best, because your name always reminds me of either food, like a dessert, or the movie How the Grinch Stole Christmas. I don't know why. Krimpet.
Bluelyme - LOL.. I was just laughing at a "Feel the Bern" shirt the other day. People are ridiculous.
As for my clinic, we're totally open for business. Stop by, and bring your bee buddies (I'm actually really curious about BVT, but nothing like that around here).
And, in response to Little Bear, if you guys are concerned about the prices, know that I'm DEFINITELY worth it!
Anyway.. lol.. I was just gonna give everyone a big hug, then go to sleep, but I figured I'd give some responses.
Also, I have to do my monthly share and tell post sometime soon, before the month ends, so you'll be seeing me. I have something very big and important to me I wanna share, but I don't know how everyone will respond.
It's a good thing, but also a bad thing, because I'm not really in the position of health to be doing it, but I'm trying anyway, because.. my future (health and being able to provide for myself) kind of hangs on it.
We'll see though.
Again, love, all around.