Posted 11/18/2016 1:15 AM (GMT 0)
Yeah, it's terrible. I get this weird, tingling sensation in my brain, after I've done a lot of thinking, concentrating, etc. Basically, anything that's been mentioned so far.
People reacting to things as a group. For example, you mentioned people cheering at a sports game. There will be times where people will respond to things certain ways, and.. while I'm not completely lost to what it is and why they're responding, it's not the same for me. I feel foreign. A great example is, like, the times I've made people laugh in some of my classes. I'll say something that's not really all that funny to me, a many number of people will laugh, and look at me.. and I am just like.. uhhh.. haha.
As much as I try, I can't do very long, detailed conversations. I really try, but I always get the feeling I'm trying to get out of it ASAP, which is something that, I swear, I've read that is a symptom - avoidance of social situations or whatever.
Yelling matches will do it, too. I deteriorate badly, if you really upset me. My breaking point is very near. I will lose it. Then, when that happens, things like restraint, common sense, and the like are difficult to muster.
It's all very strange. I try not to let myself feel too out of place, but it's a chore.
In public, I'm able to maintain a pretty level state, but that's because I'm not really challenged in ways that are too social. I don't go around, engaging in intelligent conversations, anything like that. The most trouble I'm given nowadays is schoolwork.
Things will eventually get to where I'll be confronted by more people, things, situations, or whatever, because I continue to slowly push myself out of every new comfort zone that I develop, and I'm terrified that I will fall apart. Though, you know, just gonna keep trying. :D
Anyway, those sensations I mentioned are common for me, no matter what I am doing, but it's definitely much worse with mental stimulation. Throbbing.
But, say, after lying down, letting my mind be free, I've found I feel much better. If I'm at school or work, I just kind of stop thinking, if at all possible. Though, that's not always an option, so I force myself through it. Little brain naps do help, though.
This is a fascinating topic. I wish I could deliver some cohesive thoughts on it.