Hi
I just wanted to relate a similar experience. I've also always been sensitive to certain sounds, particularly vibratory sounds, such as sounds of neighbors walking, banging, voices and tvs vibrating through walls. This was amplified when I became infected, and became increasingly unbearable, right in-line with the timeline of infection (July 2013). I also note that it's generally sounds from people, rather than lawn-mowers, etc.
April said...
It seems I'm actually developing a phobia to those sounds. Sometimes I catch myself lying in bed all nervous and thinking 'ok, the noises can start any minute now', then almost crying when they do. I have bad experience from one of my previous apartments
I know this is not the best answer to give, but the only thing that helped me was to move into my own house.
After two horrible experiences with upstairs neighbors, I found a small and quiet condo, on the top floor of a walk up with no shared walls and no upstairs neighbors, so I thought I was safe. For about
a year it was great, then my super quiet downstairs neighbor decided to rent his condo to a loud couple that had non-stop overnight guests, music/tv on all the time, and they argued - A LOT. Even though it was below me their noise brought back all of my previous experiences and it got to the point where I felt like I was going insane, literally. I was getting increasingly agitated...hyperfocusing on every little sound. I would lie down to go to sleep waiting in fear that the noises would start any minute, and I would hear some sounds in my sleep.
Occasionally, earplugs (and loud fan) helped, especially preemptively so if any racket started I might not hear it. Most of the time however, it would be noisy through the evening, and then I would lie there in a state of stress, waiting for the next thud or crash. Plus, with earplugs I had to sleep with my alarm under the pillow in order to wake up on time. It just wasn't worth it anymore and I had the revelation that I don't need to stay there, so I decided that I HAD to move to a single house for my own health and well-being.
I will honestly say that it may not get any better. I had to come to terms with my very specific needs for a "home", which means no shared walls and no close neighbors. I know not all of us have that ability, and I exchanged a 15 minute walk to work with a 90 minute traffic commute each way, but the trade-off was far more than worth it for me.
You can't control what other people do, or live like, and that's part of the anxiety IMO...especially if you're more aware and considerate with your own "noise". You can control the situation by making certain adjustments, but they are not always a given, and aside from moving, are mostly temporary solutions to a continuous problem. Based on what I went through, the anxiety and distress just builds up and continues to hurt you. Even my coworkers said I became noticeably less "uptight" after moving.
I believe the Lyme or other infections as well as the ABX treatment are definitely going to amplify this already existing sensitivity, and it may never go away. I am 3.5 months into treatment now (I moved in July 2014) and while my "neighbor noise" problems have been resolved, I now have some random days/hours of extreme anxiety. It's like a whole body and mind thing. I can't imagine how I'd be responding if I was still living in a condo/apartment.
I now live in a rural area just outside of a suburban area, and as quiet as it is, sometimes the noise from a loud truck on the road (1/2 mile or more away) is so loud to me that I feel like it's right outside. That said, now I can deal with it, because it's fleeting, and it doesn't create the same sense of panic as the neighbor noise, which created a sense of being trapped with no relief.
I'm sorry you are dealing with this.
Post Edited (njfillet) : 11/22/2016 2:34:32 PM (GMT-7)