I sure hope I am not stepping on ANYONE's feelings or anything else here BUT-
I have NO favorites to any course of treatment. I also have no person I favor for advise and sure hope NOBODY gets stirred up due to my attempts at humor about
my "girls here" spanking me! I am what some might call a nut. My wife calls me her royal pain in the well a place I NEVER say makes her jeans look too tight anymore!
Years working for assorted Police departments built in me a strange persona I used far too many times to attempt to diffuse many life & death situations in the field. But that was face to face where my voice tone and facial gestures made CLEAR what I was saying. Online? Not so much...
Traveler & Girlie have told me several times that they recommend I stop for a day or two or back off. I obey these times. But I did NOT about
starting slow. I think from my first dose too my first full dose, less than or close to only 10 days had passed which make me a BAD boy and I admit likely irresponsible. But at age 68 with so MANY "wounds" to this very broken body, I don't have TIME to be patient as some. I also have to deal with the reality that I would honestly welcome doing a face plant and never waking up. But because Trish cries every single time I have asked her to please just sit with me and hold my hand so I could "let go" on this like and move onto a physical & mental PEACE I so long for, well, here I sit. The old broad cries and I fold up. She doesn't play fair.
My point is, I very much respect ALL opinions and direction by EVERYONE here and weigh each & everything said and do what I myself feels is best for me. I also very much WELCOME opinions I don't agree with
I just wish for everyone here to be nice and supportive of each other even if we thing the other person is NUTZ! This is the only family I have now and would ask to stay even if I found some sudden miracle cure. JUST to tease the many friends I have met here.
Just want everyone to know, I don't even tell Blue I think he/she is crazy though I KNEW they were all these weeks. Till just about
a week ago when discovering they (I HAVE to call him or her "they" since I never know if it is a man or woman!) just might have stumbled upon the most sensible treatment option for me after all? But I showed Trish and she says I AM crazy if I ever expect HER to hold a live be up to me to sting me 10 times. She thinks I will break free in a flashback and choke her
I explain I didn't need any dumb old flashback to choke her. besides. I can't CATCH the old girl anyway!
Just want everyone I value ALL opinions from all sides. All who know we by now know I'm gonna cheat anyway right?