I'll try to keep this brief even though there is a lot to it. Mentally, minus how pissed off I am about
this entire thing, I have been totally strong, solid and stable. I continue to be me, the person I have always been. Mental health "stuff" has never been an issue for me.
I woke up in the middle of the night last night after having vivid and terrifying dreams. And I was literally on another planet. I was so out of touch with reality, what was real and what was not real. I had to wake up my husband at 2am and he had to talk me through it and just sit there and hold my hand because I was ssooo scared. It was a fear unlike any fear I have ever experienced. And I can not even tell you what exactly the fear was about
or if it was in response to a specific thing. It was a general feeling of fear, panic, and a total loss of what was real and what wasn't.
In my life, this has NEVER EVER happened to me. I'm not sure what to make of it other than I am really not looking forward to going to sleep tonight.
It is the morning now and I am feeling much better with my head screwed on straight