Overwhelmed

Hi,

My name is Krystine. Today, I had a visit with my primary care doctor who I have been out-of-touch with since the beginning of the year. I have been dealing with so many symptoms these past several weeks; I told her everything. I had 3 ER visits last month trying to figure out what's going on. I believe I do have pathogens, parasites or Lyme disease and am wanting to take the next step for diagnosis.

However, due to lack of finances that will help address this, a decreased confidence in myself, and feeling so fatigued, I feel overwhelmed with this illness. I have so many negative thought patterns I need to break. I am told a positive attitude is crucial. That is why I sought out an online support community. I hope that I can be helped to lift myself up here...vigilance is needed now, and I am so afraid I won't get this turned around.

It would be helpful to hear from you all what it was like for you at the beginning when you became aware you had Lyme. Did you face fear, frustration, negative thoughts? Thank you for reading.

In the beginning - scared to death. Couldn't stand to read what people had to say on the forums. Compared to others' stories, my symptoms were mild. I was terrified that what happened to others would happen to me - like I would catch those disabling symptoms or have horrifying herxheimers just by reading about them.

I read more as I could come to grips with it. The more I read, the more truth I learned, and the less afraid I felt. I trusted God and kept reading until I found information that resonated with me. What resonated with me was natural treatment using Stephen Buhner's protocol.

There's no one right or sure way to treat Lyme and coinfections, so it's important to learn what you can and choose a path that feels right for you. No matter what you choose, know that you can change direction if you need to. Don't be paralyzed with the fear of choosing the wrong thing.

I was where you are not too long ago. I'm in my 7 month of treatment now. There was doubt of diagnosis because I didn't want it to be true. I was also scared about my future and treatment and felt negative about all of it just like you do now. I was panicked. It will pass though. Allow yourself to go through this process emotionally. I understand what you are feeling. A couple of months into treatment I knew I would prob not feel too well for a while and was feeling really depressed. It was then that I realized I'm going to go through this no matter what. I can't change the situation. So I changed my attitude about it. I have to tell you it has helped me on me hardest days. Educate yourself and do whatever you can to get well. Its a lot at first but you will thank yourself for it later. Also realize lyme and co infections can also make it harder for you to cope as they can wreak havoc on your emotions and make you anxious. Reading the new to lyme thread at the top of the forum page helped me understand a lot as well. Do you have a lyme literate dr? You will need to find one in your area so you can treat this the correct way. Members on the forum can help you find one. There are a lot of lyme savy peoole here! You will find strength inside of you you didn't know you had. Everything will be okay! Take it day by day.